Should have be.

It should be a happy period for me since I've waited for this for 3 months. 
But, it seems like not exactly happened with what I thought. Maybe I thought it in too perfection way.  [@.@]


There's too many outta my expectation. High expectation caused low satisfaction. (in negative way) And no!! I could not control myself to think in that way which it's completely a TRUTH!


I'm not complaining. I'm just try to share out my mind. I wish to find someone who can understand me. Not completely but at least more than what you gave me. {Maybe it apparently showed that 'the more we get, the more we want'.}


There's too many thing I saw which is different from what I know and "imagine' before. No doubt, I'm definitely very good in IMAGINATION!!!!! This is so true!!


Sometimes (quite alotsa time), i wish to escape from your side. I thought that you've changed. Yes, indeed you are. Or, both of us, perhaps. 
Yea, I know. People keep changing everyday. People's mind, thought, and blah blah blah.. I could not expect that you're still the same you with no slightly different with the one i just know you few years ago.


And one question that I would like to point out, is our love still remain like last time? Does it changed? Can you answer me for this?
When our minds and thoughts are changed, how can we still love a person that we disagree  or we start to feel irritates on them? I DUNNO!!! Can anyone answer me this??

I still do love you. But I feel that something goes wrong in between. 

Can I get back the old you? Or this is the only real you?

It should be the sweetest period after so long. It should be. 

But it does not. 

ΞΞΞΞΞΞΞΞ

夜深睡不着，真的是久违了的事.

人,还真的不能空闲下来。
时间多了，真的不知道可以做什么.只能把多余的时间来想这想那.

开始看不见了。
开始迷糊了。
开始动摇了。

一直坚信的，
一直以为的，
一直清楚的，
全都乱了。

我不知道是不是件好事.

太多事，让我混淆。
太多事，让我错乱。

我的未来啊，你会是怎样的呢?


我看不见你....

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因为害怕失去，所以不停地想抓紧。
反而让自己失去得更多。

失去了快乐，
失去了自由，
失去了可爱，
失去了自我。

所以我决定，
好好让自己放肆一下。

把所有不好的念头抛掉。
还给你一个正常的我。 =)

.Untitled.

[Busy] is not a good excuse to tell the one that you love that you got no time to take care everything of her. Okay, maybe EVERYTHING is a little bit over, but at least her feeling, her thought you must take care bah~


I've had enough of take good care of your feeling. Maybe you think that I'm not doing that good. But I did and I've already tried my best. Really. I'm not blaming. I did all these volunteer because of you. And now I don't see any point that can let me stay like that. I'm just tired, and started to feel worthless.


The way you react, the way you talk, the way you 'concern' me, the way you said you miss me. I just can't feel any sincerity of it. Perhaps, you did. But mostly, you just feel that you are responsible to do so, and that's why you do. That's it. 


So, I'm gonna do whatever I like. Whatever that can makes me happy and enjoy.






是不是谁给的不够，还是谁放的太多？
i like this sentence very much. How about you?
I'm the one who putting too much. And I'm gonna keep it back.
I really scare of getting hurt. Gonna back to my protection layer before I get any hurt again. 

Drunk. Free. Crazy.

Wish to get drunk out of sudden. 

I also sweat gao gao for myself.

I really don't wish to think.

I'm tired of thinking.

I've be a good girl for so long time.

I'm gonna off my hp and out for a trip few days. 

Can I?

I feel wanna relax.

Free everything outta my mind.

It's tiring.

Who can rescue me?

I wanna have a crazy life for a few days.

Can I?

Lost

Okay. This is gonna be another EMO post again.
So sorry but I have no choice.
I couldn't find anywhere out to release my mood, the voice inside my heart.
I dunno who to talk with as I dun wanna to trouble them because of my personal emo.


When i was working at Neway, someone told me that I'm a person who will easily trust on what people told me. In short, I easily get cheated. Seriously, I don't think he is right as I think that myself very hard to trust on somebody. I am a so called inspector. I like to find out everything which get suspected by me. And with no doubt, i always never failed in finding out the answer and the truth. 


Once I found out there's something suspected, I will not ever trust you anymore. Even though you think that I'm believing in you, that's just my surface expression. My deeply thought will not believe in you easily. That's me! (whether you like it or not)


While the moment I started to suspect you everytime, it is the moment that you lost your trust from me. Maybe your explanation does make sense for you, and maybe for everyone, but not me. Seriously not for me. 


I will combine all the matter that you think that it is not a matter, and make it into a piece of story. Thus, it becomes the best evidence that why I lost trust in you. Maybe you could not understand the way how I'm thinking. But never mind, as long as there's no bluffing, no lying, no hiding, no betraying, no any others thing that will broke my trust towards you, then CONGRATULATIONS!!! There will be no LOST in between our relationship.


But, can you make it?
How long and how far you can do it?




You can easily break your trust on somebody, but hard to build it back. 


So, don't ever try to lost it, especially MINE!!


Sincerely thanks!

Easy Going

I am really an easy going person.

You treat me good, i treat you well.

I am really an easy going person.

You treat bad, i treat you worse.

I am really an easy going person.

Easy going to angry.

Easy going to suspect.

Easy going to cry.

Easy going to think much.

Please! Do bear in mind!

Thanks.

I need an answer

I watched a Taiwan drama named: 'A Fierce Wife' these few days when I'm in home. While I'm watching, memories keep flashed back. It brought me into the drama series. The feeling, the hurt, the willing to stand strong and blah blah blah... every scene in the drama stimulate me a lot..

But then, it caused me think of my mummy as well. I always ask her watch this drama when she called me. Lol. This is so like her case. But now she manage to stand strong and everything is end. I mean my so called 'father' and my mummy. 

The day they met up, I'm wondering what is her feeling? Do she still love him? Or she hate him? I saw the way she talked to him, every words also fulled of teased and sarcastic meaning. But he deserved it. He did!

And for me, from my parents' incidence, it caused me not so believe in guys. 'Thanks' to my past experience, I always think a lot when I'm facing uncertain thing like I could not find my bf, or he did not send a goodnight msg to me before he sleep. I think a lot. Really. But I believe in him, that he would not betray me (Erm, maybe for now he would not. Teehee :p). I really do. But still, I suspect a lot. I pay very very very close attention on his fb, msn, msgs, and everything. I still rmb he told me this : You came here just for checking me??!!!

I know, you were angry bcuz you think that I do not believe you. Just like how I feel you do not believe in me. We love each other, so we scare to lose each other. We try our best to secure each other aside. I know you understand this as well :)

The heroin in the drama does believe her husband very much when she do not know any betraying of his husband. She is a kind, lovely, i think every praising words also suitable for her. Frankly, too good to be true. I don't think there's still a woman like her nowadays, which will not worry her husband betray him. She is not that kinda super full of confidence woman. But she still believe in her husband, until the truth has been revealed, only she started and learned not to believe anyone too deeply.  

I've learned. From myself past experience, my mummy's experience, and from the drama too. It encouraged and remind me not to put your hope on someone or something. If your hope is gone, you will get hurt so badly. 

And I'm so wondering, what a guy needs and wants?

Love? Money? Family? Friends? Freedom? 

A secure and happy life? Adventure life? Rich life? Or...?

How and when I can get the answer?!

I know I'm a weirdo. No choice, who ask me got so many free times to think so many questions? And I seriously will go to find out the answer!!!

HOW? I think i will go and interview my guy friend around me. *wink*

♥ ♥ ♥Challenging but Smooth's 10th and 11th month Anniversary ♥ ♥ ♥

Dear Mr. Tang Siew Kong,

We both know that we are so busy for our job for these few months especially in June. 

Our working time is totally different. I work morning shift but you work for night shift and you do not have any off day in a week. So we really barely could talk to each other. And for that, we getting more appreciate the time we are able to talk with each other. 

You are certainly freaking tired after your whole working day.. Same do i..But we still wanna talk to each other.. it is just because we know that that's the only tiny chance that we can talk in a week.. It is a new and tough experience for us. But i think that is another way which can educate me become more tolerate.. (Seriously I less to get really angry with your abandonment, and if you think I AM, i'm just 'nao gai' all the way :p)

We've passed through our 10th and 11th month anniversary silently due to our busyness. We're heading to our 12th month anniversary. Oh my! And most importantly, you're coming back to me.. 

YOU'RE COMING BACK BY NEXT WEEK! 

I always imagine the moment when i see you, what will I do?

Hug u tightly and cry? Look at you and smile? I dunno.. maybe both of them?? LOL

But no matter what expression that i'll give u, I'm certainly happy till deadly in my heart.. and i know that you'll know that ^^

We successfully pass through this stupid tough distance challenge. Salute for us! =)

I know there's alot challenges coming to us.. As long as our heart is tied up together, never let go, I believe that we can go through every challenges which are waiting for us in the future =)

Tang Siew Kong, let's fight together ya~ 

Last but not least, the important one, I love you~

♥ ♥ ♥ Happy 11th month anniversary! ♥ ♥ ♥

Regards,

Miss Lim Chiau Chyi

A little updates about my June story~

My last updated blog is on 31st May, which mean, I'E ABANDONED MY BLOG FOR A MONTH!!!!! [sowie]

My previous month nothing special.. keep working all the day.. but have a really nice experience with neway colleagues.. working together.. having fun together.. Frankly, really quite heave to leave them.. but due to my personal reasons: 1st, i super dun like the operation manager there.. dunno how to respect those who help him to operate the outlet.. 2nd, i get a better job offer from SSF company.. It perhaps a good news for me at the beginning.. Everything was so smooth until unbelievable.. I was wondering is there any trick inside..?

But i think I got no chance to prove it anymore.. When i told the manager that i do not have any transport to go for work, he even offer me car allowance just want me to work for him?? what a ridiculous allowance for me.. I haven't start to work for him, he do not know my job performance, how can he simply offer me that much?? WEIRD!

But nevermind, i got no chance to prove all things.. now what i can do is goyang kaki in my house.. search is that any job which can fulfilled my ONLY ONE requirement: TRANSPORTATION PROVIDED!!

~God bless me~