重色轻友

我记得我们刚开始的时候，朋友们都投诉，我为了你都荒废了自己的学业，变得很不负责任。没错，我认！我的确是重色轻友。我相信每个人都是这样的。

我现在就是在为我的重色轻友作多余的解释^^

另一半就是会陪着你终生的人（如果你们能很幸运地完成结婚生子，没有外遇的幸福生活过一辈子。当然争吵一定是免不了的），不论生活是怎样，既然选择了你，就没有打算要离开过（起码我是）。所以，另一半就是除了自己，就是人生中最重要的人。

家人，他们就是有种怎样都切骨不离皮的感觉。就算几百年没有见到他们你都不会觉得陌生。因为他们就是与你有种莫名的血缘关系。所以，他们更希望你可以找到属于你的另一半。因为他们比谁都还希望你过得好。

朋友，说真的，我朋友不算很多。但，很多都是愿意在我需要帮助的时候伸出援手。真的很感激。可是，你却有种欠他们太多，你会不好意思的那种感觉。就是会有一层很奇怪的膜。你们都深知不可以刺穿这层膜。因为朋友毕竟是朋友。

我的死党们，都很有分寸。至少比我有。我就是那种会冒犯到对方得私隐的人。不过随着年龄越来越大，我也收敛了不少。

我承认我是重色轻友。
但，我并没有忘记我身边的人。
只是我的瞳孔因为某人而放大，而只看到他。

所以，我的亲朋戚友，
我还很爱你你们的哟~~
而且，我真的很容易满足。
一个赞赏，一个拥抱，一个需要；
都能让我很开心。


希望你们能明白！！ =)

爱。动力。

我是个相当需要爱才会有动力的人。

昆虫类嫌我太不独立了，他甚至怀疑我跟他一起之前，我是怎样渡过我的日子。我当时只是觉得很气！因为我讨厌被人说我不独立！！

不过，当我冷静下来后，我已经完全可以解开这个疑惑了。

众所皆知，我是个依赖感非常强的人。

我喜欢依赖我身边的人，我也很享受被身边的人依赖。

这样你自己才会觉得自己活在这个世上才有一种被重视的感觉。

同样地，当你被依赖的时候，你就会觉得自己可以保护到对方。

所以，人使要互相依赖。

独立。

我可以很独立。

我可以一个人搭巴士回家。

我可以一个人完成只要是我觉得想要完成的事。

至于一个人旅行，我是怕寂寞而且我很胆小，所以对我来说是不可能的。

至于以前我没有爱情的滋润，竟然还可以生存？

简单~

我没有爱情的滋润，可是我有友情和亲情的滋润。

诶？怎么现在我却好像没有爱情，没有了你，却好像不可以了呢？

更简单~

因为当一个女生恋爱的时候，会遗忘全世界。

眼里和心里只有你一个。
不明白？
就是说恋爱前，生活重心就是在朋友和家人的身上；
恋爱后，生活重心是落在你的身上，再来才到朋友和家人。

总结来说，我想是一个非常需要爱的人。

我很贪心。

我亲情、友情和爱情都想同时能拥有。

不过目前，我最想要的就是爱情。

现在这个年龄阶段就是要享受爱情嘛。

那么快从爱情变感情再变亲情，怎样过一辈子哦？

总结就是，

我需要爱作为我的动力。

推动我向前的力量。

Siew Kong Oppa, 

A la soh???

Chung mael Saranghae~~ ^^

♥ Our First Anniversary ♥

Happy first anniversary to you!! And thanks for your chocosss ^^

I should have blog this on 4th of August. But that day I went out to Serdang and there's no internet supply for me to blog. I do have my phone, but I wish to organize well my precious first anniversary blog post. =] So, urhmmm ^^

Apparently, we've been separated once again. This time he went to Singapore for building up his career. If his plan did not change, then this will only be the first step in building up his career. Again, wish you luck ^^

I always wonder that why does the one I chose got such big wild ambition? I'm not very sure this is a good or bad one, or perhaps both side. Yes, I always proud of having such a ambitious boy with me, means he will try his best to get what he wants. In short, he is a highly motivated and have the desire and urge for improvement, for himself and his family's life.

He's a good friend, he loves helping friends around him. I used to be his friend before. My best friend were his housemates for 1 year plus. So I can definitely can proudly says that, He IS A GOOD FRIEND.

He's not really a good son for his mother, but i know that he loves, respect(put aside how he talks to his mother 1st), and i can see he is really protecting his mother. He is a smoker, not heavy but not light smoker. But he manage to hiding this fact from his mother for few years. =.= Maybe most of the time he is not at home. But his mother found out this after he came back from Aus. She found ciggarrates in his room. I can see how sad of his mother. And surprisingly, he promised his mother that HE WILL QUIT! (But in fact he don't) Everytime I found out that he smoked, I played with him, I wanna tell your mummy! Then his reaction really outta my expectation. He is really begging me not to tell his mother. He never begged to me like that before. I surprised. Additionally point, his revenge plans also because of his mother.


He's a good brother, too. I can see it how he treat his sister. Taken away the responsible from his parents in order to pay for his sis's loans. Although the way he talk to his family which I totally freaked up, but I know that, he loves his family. 

But very sad, he's not a very good lover. At the starting, he is. He took care everything on me. Sweet words, warm cares and blah blah blah.. But now?? Sad cases.. Better not talk about it. But the main point is I still do love him very much. *Speechless* 
Still love him truthly deeply madly. LOL

I also don't get why, but it is just like this way. It's just happened. ^^
Maybe this phrase (except I love him) will describe and explain why I still stay with him. 


"每一朵玫瑰都有刺，正如每个人的性格里，都有你不能容忍的部分。​爱护每一朵玫瑰，并不是得努力的把它的刺根除，只能学习如何不被​她的刺刺伤，还有，如何不让自己的刺刺伤别人。——《玫瑰花的哲​学》"

Dear Siew Kong Oppa,


Do you know that? Just when I think I couldn't possibly love you any more, you do that special little something that takes me to a new level. ♥
I'm happy u walked into my life and I'm overjoyed that you always made me smile,even if you didn't mean to.The bad thing is that I miss you so FREAKING much! I Love You! ♥




 Regards,
Your cutie little fat ^^

重视

无论是成熟还是幼稚的人，都需要被重视。
自己的想法与感受一直不停被忽视，你会好过吗？

一直乞讨着这些‘重视’，把自己搞得一团糟。
真正会重视你的人，不需要你去乞讨。

觉悟吧!

无题

最近，我的情绪都因为感情而忽起忽落。
我的部落格写的都是我负面的想法和心情。
其实，我真的很不喜欢那样的自己。
我很讨厌自己闹情绪。
我很渴望拥有那些不论发生什么事都可以很好的处理自己的情绪的人。
（亏我还读什么‘人类发展’）


我很怀疑到底有多少人还有来看看我的部落格。
就连我最想被那个关心的人，也遗忘了这里，忘了这里是我们更了解彼此的地方。


你告诉我，
你不是不爱我了。
只是你有更重要的事情要做。
这点我完全可以体谅，真的。
可是，我真的不了解为什么态度也可以改变？
是我想太多？还是我太敏感？


说真的，有很多时候我真的很讨厌你。
可是不过一下子，我又发现我不能讨厌你，因为我真的很爱你。
你应该真的没有察觉到我真的很痛苦吧？
虽然我有开口告诉过你我的感受，
可是你一定是觉得我在闹脾气吧？
你到底有多久没有真正的了解我了？


你也可以说，我不了解你。
因为你就是这样的人。
我真的尝试地在接受，一直不断地改变自己。
可是，有用吗？


原来，太爱一个人，真的会让人崩溃。
可笑的是，我还是选择继续崩溃。