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年十四 - 灯佑苏丹街

2012-02-08T22:46:00.000+08:00

那天星期六晚上，就像平时一样的出去跟一帮家乡朋友喝下茶，吹下水。
最后决定取消了热浪岛之旅。虽然觉得有点可惜，可是我宁愿不想去玩到不开心，反正，热浪岛不会跑掉，只是怕你没有钱去~ 还是跟对的人去比较好！

然后谈谈下，ah lap突然讲起苏丹街要被拆掉了！
天啊！我丁点儿也不知道这事啊！！我到底还是不是马来西亚公民啊？
说真的，还是有点自责，因为真的没有看报纸和新闻。

一谈之下，我们四人就决定要出去看看他们这次举办的活动 - 灯佑苏丹街。

本来只是抱着想去拍照的心情出去的，因为是古迹嘛，再加上要被拆了。
你们都知道的啦，有的时候根本不会去留意的啦，认为是理所当然的，当要被拆的时候，才发现它珍贵之处~

到达我们的目的地后，发现已经有小群的人聚在那边了。那时才大概是5点多。可是大会是8点才开始的。
很多相机发烧友都一直在狂拍。
电视台和活动的主办当局都在设定他们的音响和录影机。

到了八点，人简直是多到~~~
到了点灯仪式，我们都提着我们的灯笼走一小段路，然后再把它挂起来。

我们还遇到不少的本地明星，可是我们没有抓着他们来合照。因为我不好意思！呵呵~
整晚都在拍照，吃东西，到处晃~
照片可以从我面子书上看，都是用手机拍的~

而且，我们上电视咧~呵呵~搞笑~
虽然只有几秒，但我还是很兴奋~~！！

活动感言：虽然我不是在那一带长大的。但那边的确有不少我的足迹。看到了他们的奋力去捍卫自己的土地，我很敬佩。我也很衷心的希望他们的愿望能够实现。
真的希望有关当局能够真正的听到他们的心声。

这是我第一次参加类似的活动。很累，但我觉得很值得。

事事不顺意

2012-02-02T15:07:00.000+08:00

我是怎么了？年还没有过完，怎么倒霉的事接二连三？

计划好的Redang之旅，被一些不合作的人搞得我实在是没有心情和他一起去玩。我决定不去了！把钱省上来作其他用途更好。

再来，就是我的小Hp电脑坏了！又是荧幕的问题！

我就来崩溃了~气死我了！！！！

很有想哭的感觉！！

天啊~！！

怎么事事都不顺意？？

Treat your girl right, bro. Plain and simple.

2012-01-23T11:23:00.000+08:00

Saw this accidentally from fb, found that it is totally the voice in my heart. Guys, pls read this patiently. Perhaps you can get to know more about the girl that you love.

''I know it can be hard to please her sometimes, but it’s worth it in the end. Remember that she’s your happiness, your world. She should be the first person you talk to in the morning, and the last person you whisper “Good night” to. Unlike some of your bros, she’s going to be there for you when you’re the happiest, but more importantly, when you’re at your lowest. She’ll cook for you and care for you, so treat her like a queen. Girls are delicate creatures. Think before you say. Think before you act. They take every little mistake you make and multiply it by a thousand. So try not to mess up, aight? When you’re fighting, sometimes it’s better to put your relationship before your own pride. You’re not helping yourself by making her upset, bro. And never, ever, under any condition, let her go to sleep crying. She’ll resent you for it for the rest of your days. Don’t forget to make her feel special everyday. Open doors, go shopping with her. Hell, make dinner for her! The more you show her you love her, the more she’ll give you in return. Remember that an “I love you” via text is never as special as one in person. And show her off to your bros, don’t be ashamed of her. She’s never been ashamed of your dorky ass. Look, she doesn’t really need much in a relationship; she just wants to feel like she matters to you. That’s not asking for much, bro.
But if you haven’t learned a thing from reading this, remember this. Love her unconditionally, loyally, and keep her close. Love her with everything you’ve got: emotionally, mentally, and physically. Because I swear, if you won’t treat your girl right, someone else definitely will.''

Still you~

2012-01-22T20:11:00.000+08:00

这几天，情绪不是很好。

可是还是得带着开开心心的脸出门。

一来，我不想带着丧家的脸出门；

二来，我是想借出门来转换我的心情。

在面子书上的relationship status改去single了；

反应比我想象中的更强烈。

（不知道要哭还是笑）

不过，谢谢大家的关心。

这次还出动到我妈咪，替我们俩拉拢。

不过，好像没有什么效果。

到最后，我们自己协议和好了。

其实也算不上什么协议啦，

就是很清楚的表达自己的想法，

虽然大家的想法还是没有改变过，

只不过在一起久了，

我们大家似乎变得不会去尊敬对方。

我，

动不动就闹脾气。

你，

动不动就态度不好。

明明是相爱的，

可是却搞倒情况很糟。

我还在面子书上delete了你，

对不起我真的很幼稚。

可是不得不承认，

刚好的女性荷尔蒙在我身上转变着，

本来就很情绪化的我，

现在就更加变本加厉。

再加上，

你连夜从新加坡回来，

不够睡，

肝火上升，

导致我们各自爆发了。

不过，

也还好我们这次的爆发，

让我们知道，

我们都不愿放开对方，

虽然我曾经很想放弃；

还好他的坚持，加上我的不舍。

或说很奇怪，

本来真的很没有精神的我，

一旦和你和好后，

精神和心情变得很好。

所以，不得不相信，

你是我最好的良药。

[不管何时何地]

今天的除夕夜，

妈咪说：

“今天是衰年的最后一天。把不好的留在今天，把好的继续带去明天~ 我会更好的！”

就让我们的臭脾气留在今年，

不带去明年。

我们会更好的~

~I believe in our faith~

我的mummy

2011-12-13T19:54:00.000+08:00

今天完成了stress的presentation，大致上都还很满意。老师还特别赞了我们这组，开心地说。

不过，在present的过程，老师似乎对mummy这份工表现的很惊讶，好像从来没有听过这份工似的。（我叫我mummy成为我assignment的respondent）

还奉劝各位女同学以后不要做这份工，还有很多工作可以选。

虽然老师是用开玩笑的语气来说，再加上老师不知道这位respondent是我的mummy。

（我想如果她知道，她会觉得更加劲爆吧！）

试问，如果有得选择，有谁愿意离开家和自己的孩子那么远？一个人在外面打拼的滋味很好过吗？

我mummy是个命苦的女人，一生都没有什么好的遭遇。

就连我们四个都是时常气到她要死。

我是爱她的，可是对着她就是没办法表达。

有时想到她这么地为我们努力赚钱，当然也是可以让她自己过上比较好的生活，毕竟她也真的苦够了吧～

我的mummy虽然不是一个最好的人，

我的mummy虽然不是一个最好的mummy，

但她为这个家，为我们付出的，

是最多的。

我真的希望可以快点毕业，早点出去赚钱。

可以让她在早点休息。

mummy,我爱你!

朋友

2011-12-12T17:55:00.000+08:00

其实，我觉得生活在这世上有一个要好的朋友胜过有千个泛泛之交；或俗称虚假的朋友。

当你经历过，看透后，

你就后发现没有朋友其实没有什么大不了。

因为真正陪旁着自己的是，

你的心灵。

若是你觉得寂寞，就找些书来看，不然就上上网，找家人和真正的朋友聊天。

要不然，就让那些所谓的朋友发挥他们存在的意义。

打发时间。

没有真正的朋友，其实真的没什么。

只要打理好自己的心灵和想法。

你就会豁达了许多。

那些朋友能在你需要帮助的时候，请认清他们。

因为他们值得让你记得一辈子。

朋友，很重要。

但，看开了，都是和你一样。

是人一个。

而人，都是自私的。

若你身边有位你觉得是你真正的朋友，

请珍惜他们！

切记！

C-H-A-N-G-E!!!

2011-12-06T00:03:00.000+08:00

Feels like wanna change my header image out of sudden!

I must have change it after this dead week!

I will change it after this torture week!!

I promise I will change it after this crazy week!!!

Just feel bored with the header! :p

I-M-U-S-T-C-H-A-N-G-E-I-T

Twilight Saga vs Vampire Diaries

2011-12-05T12:09:00.000+08:00

First thing, don't blame me for comparing these two vampires series.

If you have been chasing for these two series, you will find out there are quite a lot of differences between both series.

For me, I'm totally so into Vampires Diaries.
For Twilight, just so-so.
But I still will go for Twilight as I wish the actors and actress can turn out my mind. After came out from the cinema, I know, they still cant. ;p

I still prefer Steward's brothers and Elena. Their acting are so natural and they can bring me into the drama. Story line was unpredictable. I love how the story goes. And the director and good enough to bring the message and vampires feel to us.

I'm not studying the Twilight story. So I don't know the story of the book like any others readers out there. Before went inside cinema, I have totally zero knowledge of the story. Except for the last 3 episodes, but I already can guess what will go at the next. Love romance was too long and made me feel bored.

That's just my opinion on both vampires series.
AND, I love Damon's eyes!! Mysterious and pretty eyes he has! JEALOUS!!

I'm a super VD's supporter!!! Yeah!!!

【給巨蟹座的1封信】

2011-12-05T12:00:00.000+08:00

这篇是写给巨蟹的一封信，
我在发现，我真的很巨蟹。
巨蟹到连我都不太相信自己是那么的巨蟹。
来看看你们眼中的我是不是这样吧～

逃避是他們的習慣。
他們對自己渴望的東西，總是先退到一邊，似乎毫不關心，然後突然撲上去。他們沒有很強的適應能力，卻有天生的領悟力。
他們以自我為中心，懂得自我保護。
他們最害怕孤獨，但又注定了孤獨。
有很多秘密，把真實的自己藏於夜半的寂靜和午間笑聲的明朗中。
巨蟹經常會說“我覺得”“我想”，他喜歡用敏銳的第六感來表達想法和感情。
不喜歡複雜的環境，他喜歡呆在安靜的地方做他喜歡的事。
喜歡跟志同道合的人組成一個小圈子自娛自樂。
巨蟹座善良體貼，不計較，會細心的記住好朋友的生日。
或許多愁善感，但仍然會在最難過時給你微笑.

巨蟹是十二星座中最為戀家的星座。
他們是現代的模範伴侶，他們無論走到哪裡都不會忘記家裡有人在等著自己。遇到巨蟹座的戀人是最大的幸福。
巨蟹是一個很感性的星座，一旦陷入愛情就會想要時時刻刻跟對方黏在一起。所以對癡情的巨蟹來說，每次結束一段感情都是最痛苦的經歷。

巨蟹天生悲觀，脾氣古怪，會突然爬進保護性的殼裡。
在受傷後他很少反擊，只會放棄。逃避是他的習慣。
他很念舊，喜歡舊東西。
他最注重的就是安全感，希望被保護卻常常是一個人。
他希望有屬於自己的空間，喜歡獨處。

巨蟹不喜歡受別人限制。他不喜歡任何東西過於圓滿，對他來說有缺陷的人生才是完美的，缺陷是靈魂的出口。
他的快樂都是微小的事，比如看見一隻小貓或小狗，收拾乾淨自己的家，看著在花瓶裡有水珠的香水百合。
很多巨蟹喜歡顧影自憐喜歡自己舔傷口，他心裡想什麼從來不說別人也猜不到。

巨蟹座的人有包容心，一般不會為了一點芝麻小事而耿耿於懷。
具有容人的雅量，很少拒人於千里之外。
再加上其有禮貌，善交際，富幽默感之迷人個性及對人道主義的尊崇會有許多朋友。
事實上巨蟹座的人經常會在強悍的外表下，隱藏著一顆柔弱的內心他就像這星座的表徵－－螃蟹。

巨蟹總說著無所謂的話，喜歡瞎想。尤其是讓人流淚的情節。
巨蟹夏天露出皮膚時，厭惡被陌生人觸碰。在公車上最為顯著。
巨蟹討厭裝的人，但有時候自己也不得不裝，還裝得挺真的。
巨蟹笑起來完全不顧形象，任憑周圍怪異的眼光也不會收斂。
巨蟹的心思很簡單不喜歡勾心鬥角。

这真的是我，
完全的我。

我是巨蟹，而且是一只大巨蟹。
如果你惹不起我，就别想惹我。
不然被我缠上了，你就会后悔莫及！

不管了！！！

2011-12-05T11:55:00.000+08:00

我知道是自己活该，什么都拖到最后一分钟才做。
现在的压力，搞得我半生死。
心跳也莫名地一直加快，快到我几乎觉得心脏快要跳出来。

心脏很用力地在跳，
我的脑很用力地在乱想。

我不管啦！！
什么都不管啦！！！

反正，功课做不好也不会死。
fyp而已嘛，做了，交上去，过关就算。
反正，我也不打算继续读下去。
毕业就算了。

不管了！！！

我要放轻松！！！！

1、2、3，深呼吸～～～～～～～

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2011-11-25T09:14:00.000+08:00

继昨晚痛哭后，

今天起来我的头异常的痛，眼也很肿。

所以在很没志气之下，决定逃课。

昨晚也没做到功课，所以决定不去见老师。

我知道我很懦弱。

一点小事就击倒我。

可是，我也不想交代那么多。

还是去做我想要做的东西比较好。

人生啊，

你自己都不知道几时会结束；

倒不如我活得开心点，

尽量去做自己想要做的事呗～

Just an ordinary girl

2011-11-24T23:56:00.002+08:00

Perhaps you would know about my story if you were reading on my previous previous posts.

I have a father. But he is not with me anymore. Not because he is dead, but he chose to leave us. Abandoned us for almost 10 years.

Few days ago, after so many years, he suddenly called me and ask me how good im doing recently. I answered: "not good. Im not doing good. Im sick."
Then all of the sudden his 'cares' and 'love acting' come to me. Whoahh!! I straight away whatsapp my boyfriend and told him: "my father called me just now. I think i will kena loteri today." LOL

U-N-B-E-L-I-E-V-A-B-L-E

He called me again just now when i was talking phone with my boyfriend. At last, I chose not to answer his call. Not because i dont wish to talk with him. Its just i dunno how can i face with a person that i loved so much before but he abandoned me for soooo many years. Suddenly come back and 'concern' about me so much after get to know im sick?

Why? Why only you do this after you know im not well. Why wont you do this few years back? I was always hoping you can come back someday.

But not for now anymore. My mom found HIM. And we are having a stable life. Im 'glad' that you are actually 'concern' about me by wasting your time and money to call me. If it is so, i wish you can help me to pay back my study loans. Pay for my bro's study fees later. That will be fine. And i think i 'might' forgive you.

Im just an ordinary girl who needs love. I mean, a lot a lot of lovessss. I still wish to get attention, cares and love from my father like a little girl. There is still blood bind between us. Nothing can cut the bond and no one can ever deny it. And that's why i still cannot scold you by face to face even though, i wished.

Im just an ordinary girl, who wish she'll have a father stay beside her all the time, pampered her like a little princess.

P/s: thanks to someone who seems like can read through my mind. Perhaps i will not cry so bad if you didnt point out and 'help' me to sound out all those words from my heart. I feel better after cry like crazy. Thanks with love.

I still dunno what should i do. morlahhhhh~~~

顿悟

2011-11-21T22:03:00.000+08:00

刚刚在挤黑头的时候，

突然间联想到一个人生哲学。

“每个人都会有出头的一天，

就像黑头最终都是会被挤出来，

关键是在于你有没有与要不要把它挤出来。”

我觉得我很神咧～

一粒黑头竟然被我想到这个东西。

不过，话说，

最近我顿悟的东西实在是太多了。

有些，

我还整理不出对的语法可以分享出来。

人生啊，

还是需要经历过什么，

你才会懂得什么。

Last Minute

2011-11-21T11:06:00.000+08:00

I really seriously still living in last minute's group. @.@

How I wish I can quit from this group. But I know, all I do is just wasting time to surf internet, fb-ing, weibo-ing, twitter-ing, blogging, youtube-ing and blah blah..

When I think of assignments,

"aiya, I still left 3days. Sure can gao dim de la.."

When I think of fyp,

"aiya, I still left one week. Sure I can gao dim de la.."

In fact, I really can gao dim within the dead-line. But with a so-so outcome.

I wish, I can be those can sit in front of the pc, and can concentrate on their assignments without doing others non-related to assignments' stuffs.

I wish, I can be those can sit on the chair whole day and concentrating on their study for the exam few days later without separate their mind from the notes and books.

How I wishhhhhh~~~~

Haiz, I know I must do something to change myself. But how??!!!

I just don't feel like doing anything if it is about assignments and studies.

I just wanna play more, eat more, sleep more, be with the people I love more.

Others I just dun wish to give a damn on them!

Last minute!! Last minute!! Last minute!!!

Why there are so many dead-line in our life?

Will it better with an end-less life??

20.11.2011

2011-11-20T21:17:00.000+08:00

今天的却是一个特别的日子。20号11月2011年。
就好象11日11月2011年一样。
都是只有一次。

我和大家一样，都很想和自己最爱的人渡过这一天。
奈何，我身在upm里。
与家人分开；
与男朋友相隔。T__T

所以，到最后还是忍不住地向在远方的他投诉。
为什么我们不能一起渡过这一天？
为什么我们要分开地远远？
我很想跟你渡过每一天。

他回答说：我也知道今天是个很特别的日子。

为什么我们不能一起庆祝那么多节日？

11.11.2011也不能和你一起。

不过，我不理啊～

还有一个，也是最后一个，

就是12.12.12，

还有20.12.2012。

这些是最后一次了。

以后没有了的啦。

要珍惜哦～

你要健康生活下去，

等到明年我们就可以一起甜蜜了。

嘻嘻

(以上的对白都是从英文翻译，所以与原文有点不一样.)

其实，这就是所谓的甜言蜜语吧～

他平时也是这样的～

只是这一次听起来比较不一样，

他叫我要stay well well,

我看到的时候，

眼泪差一点要滚出来了。

p/s:你放心啦，

我一定会很健康地生活。

然后我们会一起到老。

还有一句，

其实我们真的应该像珍惜今天一样地去珍惜每一天。

（可是我觉得我不想珍惜有assignment的日子）

真的应该把今天是生活里的最后的一天来生活，

那么你真的会发现很多不同。

最后，

20.11.2011

就是在Upm宿舍渡过。

在一堆功课陪伴中渡过。

感触良多

2011-11-11T12:48:00.000+08:00

这两位就是我从小看到大的两位弟妹。

那天，不知怎么的，突然想起了我弟弟小时候没有牙的样子。

真的很可爱。

最近，好像一直都回想以前我们小时候的事。

他们小小个就被看到现在，看到他们长大了，我自己也觉得很欣慰。

竟然有想哭的感觉。T___T

我想必我妈咪看到我毕业的那天，一定更加感触。

我其实很不好

2011-11-09T23:57:00.000+08:00

我只想做个简单的人

没有烦恼

无忧无虑的生活

我其实，

真的很不好。。。。。。。

不吐不快

2011-11-08T00:16:00.000+08:00

突然有话想说，虽然这是上个星期的事了，可是还是很想上来写下来。

话说，我们stress老师在第一个星期就让我做一个assignment，叫做self-analysis。
这份功课就必须写下我们觉得我们经历过最stress的事件，而且要很好的表达出我们怎样去面对。

看到这个题目的时候，我脑海了别无他想，就是决定写了这个我觉得影响我一生的事件。
【其实这件事我在我的部落格有写过，不过我懒得找出来】

然后，就在上个星期，老师把我们的assignment派回来，说是有个make-up test。要我们把我们学过的theory apply在自己的经历上。然后，她还一个一个地叫我们出去。

轮到我的时候，老师先问候一下我的心情。原来老师被我的故事吓到了。
她说当她读到我写到‘我恨他’的那段，她被吓到了。

老师问了很多问题，也给了我很多忠告。
她还说：不要因为你的过去而影响你对男人的判断。这对其他男人很不公平。并不是每个男人都是那样的。
她问：如果他回来，你还会接受他吗？（其实我没有直接回答老师这题，我只是回答说我讨厌他。）

其实我被老师点醒的一句话是她说：你看起来很强。你自我保护意识很强。而且，她很好奇我是怎样在那种环境下长大。强调一下，她说的长大不是可以活到现在，而是可以很努力的进到大学，现在已经在最后一年了。

就是因为这番话，我在发觉原来有其母，必有其女。我弟妹们也是一样。都还是乖乖的。大多数因为离异而成为单亲家庭的孩子们都是问题少年少女。所以，我真的很庆幸。

她还说：你太自我保护，会导致你在感情路上有些障碍。
我连忙点头地告诉老师：是的。我经常性都会对着男友数着他跟我爸爸很像。通常都是缺点。然后我男友就会嚷着很不公平。

其实，与老师短短的对话。我觉得释怀很多。
觉得好像有人可以了解我，读得懂我在想什么。
知道我所做的一切，都是因为我经历了什么，才会这样的。

不过，话说回来。我最近好像弱了很多。或许是我找到了我觉得可以依靠的人吧～
希望你不会让我失望吧～

注意：我的自我保护意识不会减低。因为我怕自己被伤害。

我爱我的家

2011-11-06T00:21:00.000+08:00

This post is going to spam a lot of pichasssss ^^

I went to my brother's convocation dinner on last Thursday.
Nothing much I will say about the dinner. But just to share those tons of picha we took on tha day ^^
Here we go~

It's my look on that day. Was trying to make curly hair by myself. But failed.

My sis, Lynn. Grow mature. Lol. But still, pretty! ^^

My youngest sis, Sheryn. Grow alotsa fats. HAHA! But, still cute and adorable. ")

This is my bro, Zack. Very leng cai~ HAHA! Seriously! (if his skin condition get better.)

This is my aunt with me. Pretty woman ^^

with the main character of my family that day~

The singer of the day! Lot and my sis. Their performance was awesome. *support*

3 of us~

My lovely sis~

Okay, there would be alots of crazy self-taken picha of 3of us~ ^^

Such a long time I never have gather with them. I love them and i missed them.

家，永远是最好的避风塘。

虽然帮不到你解决任何烦恼。

但，你可以感受到他们的支持。

是世上最宝贵的无价宝。

我爱你们！

I NEED A CHANGED!

2011-11-05T23:36:00.000+08:00

I'm that kinda of person who do things last minute.

I dunno why. Even though I know the dead-line is almost reached, but I still couldnt found any motivation to start my fyp.

Gosh! My friends almost done, I guess. At least, half on the way.

I'm really frustrated with myself. I hate this kind of attitude. But I just cant help it. I dunno how to change myself.

Arrgghhh!! I need a changed!! DAMMIT!!!!

Outdated post with my lovely new toy~

2011-10-27T15:11:00.000+08:00

Jeng jeng~ I'm back! [with the long lost update news.]
So here, I'm gonna update with my new lovely toys -> I-phone 4.

This is the very first look of the phone after HE get the phone. HE took this and whatsapp to me ^^

So yea, this is my new toy. I-phone 4 with white colour.

Actually I'm not so into with this phone, but fall for Samsung Galaxy S2. I love the design of the Samsung, I actually fall for S2 at the first eyes sight. And, I'm a Korea-made lover ^^

I'm having dilemma when HE asked me to choose between them. S2 is my true love, but HE is using i-phone and I wish I use the same phone with him. And with no doubt, i-phone is smoother than S2. So, at last, I chose I-phone 4. And HE chose white colour for me ^^

When I have the phone on my hand, I've got no excited feeling like I expected. I-DUNNO-WHY. Perhaps it is not my true love? But then, I found out the reason. It's just simple. Because I'm not the one who go and buy. I did not do any survey like how I did for my LG Optimus One. I took that phone as like I granted for it. I know I was wrong. And I'm starting to love this phone more and even more. HE helped me updated it to IOS5. And I seriously amazingly love it!

Before the ios5 updates, we actually had a small little argument on iphone4 and s2. I realize that my phone having the problem which the apps will spoiled IF my phone's battery dead and the apps have not be closed. For iphone user, I think you will get what I mean. (And thanks for this, My LINE app gone!! Grrrr!!!!! ) But, HE said that not everyone facing this problem. And claimed that I dunno how to take good care of my phone. And this is the main reason HE chose iphone for me (even though IF I choose s2 at last) because it is friendly user and suitable for the people who are dump especially as dumpness like me >.< But HE is right, I-AM-DUMP!

I was unhappy with the iphone. But then, after HE updated my phone. I fall for it! And I appreciate it even more. Because I know the story behind this phone. * Why I owned this phone? *

Oh yea, not to forget mention about my casing which HE bought them online. I seriously love them. It's a couple casing, and I never thought HE will do something like this. ^^

And HE said, there's a similarity between me and the casing. But I will make it as a secret. I don't wish it to be known by everyone though.

This is the pic HE whatsapp me too. After he get this ^^

And I bought a button sticker for my new toy. Love it to the max!!!! Bought one for him. But HE complained that his sticker very ugly wor.. But I think that's suit for him. Muakakaka! Don't care! Blekkkk:p

With my lovely new toy, I took alot of pichas.. Self love one, with loves one, with friends one~ Here they go~~~

His convocation day a.k.a the first day I have my phone^^

got caught during class!! :p

with meng

with wei wei

with sis lynn

with dearest mummy

with yuan

with sinyee

with hueiyi

with york leng aka ah ma

with suan

straight hair without make up

curly hair with make up

I personally love this pic ^^

Here is some introduction for my new lovely toy. And thanks to YOU, Mr. TAng. Everything you've done will always bear on my mind.

Thanks you so much with lots dose of love~~~

More than words :)

2011-10-20T10:59:00.001+08:00

A simple thing from you, made my day up! ;)

Its proven that sometimes what i want is just more than words.

Thanks and i appreciate it:) hehe^^

期待。怀念。盼望

2011-10-14T01:41:00.000+08:00

很多时候，真的希望一切退回原点。

至少没有期望，就不会有失望。

或许，当你的朋友真的会比较好一点吧～

好怀念以前你一起都在线上找我的日子。

的确，我很盼望。

盼望一切不可能发生的事。

闷~

2011-10-08T17:31:00.001+08:00

其实，我现在真的有点无助。
种种的压力搞得我喘不过气来。

然而，我只是想有个人可以听听我的倾述，安抚一下我。原来，这人还挺难找的。

只能让自己牢记：没有人会真正的懂自己。不用勉强别人去懂自己。若他们要懂，他们自己会来了解。
不要期望，更不要奢望。
自己懂自己就好。
海事要爱自己多一点！

加油！

苦瓜般的脸，走开！

Shared :)

2011-09-29T20:01:00.003+08:00

Just wanna share this little warm thing of mine today.

An apple a day, keep doctor away :)
I get this from my roommate, ai chinn.

Its so warm when i see these on my table after i reach room.
Lovely thanks.

我变成熟了吗？

2011-09-20T20:59:00.000+08:00

我很经常性地都会被身边比较亲近的人说我还不够成熟，还很幼稚，很容易被人家骗一大堆等我不喜欢听的东西。

可是，就在前几天，我破天荒地被人说：你变成熟了，虽然还是38的。是38的成熟。
我还不确定地问了：是外表的成熟是吗？
答：不是，是思想真的比以前成熟了。

可是，前提是这位朋友已经好久好久没有看过我了。所以或许他才能看到我的改变吧。
虽然不确定是不是一种称赞，但我已经把这当作是种称赞，暗爽，不，应该是明爽的不得了！呵呵:p

不过话说回来，我其中一位家乡好友，其实在不久的之前也讲我的思想改变了。变得更有计划哦。跟以前的我不一样了。是吗？我真的很怀疑自己=.=

言归正传，
我真的不清楚自己到底是不是真的变得比较成熟了，
因为我还是很依赖，不独立，悲观等等。

一个人变得成熟，
不是当他变得可以比去依赖更多人，变得更独立，变得乐观积极。
可是，我怎么都没有？

我是真的变成熟了吗？

我真的希望他们没有观察错，因为我真的不懂自己是个怎样的人。

可是不管怎样，我管他是不是不够成熟还是什么的。
我生病的时候，真的还很希望有人会来关心我。

"More than words"

2011-09-15T14:44:00.001+08:00

Saying I love you
Is not the words I want to hear from you
It's not that I want you
Not to say, but if you only knew
How easy it would be to show me how you feel
More than words is all you have to do to make it real
Then you wouldn't have to say that you love me
Cos I'd already know

What would you do if my heart was torn in two
More than words to show you feel
That your love for me is real
What would you say if I took those words away
Then you couldn't make things new
Just by saying I love you

More than words

Now I've tried to talk to you and make you understand
All you have to do is close your eyes
And just reach out your hands and touch me
Hold me close don't ever let me go
More than words is all I ever needed you to show
Then you wouldn't have to say that you love me
Cos I'd already know

What would you do if my heart was torn in two
More than words to show you feel
That your love for me is real
What would you say if I took those words away
Then you couldn't make things new
Just by saying I love you

More than words

~Sometimes, what I want is just more than words~
~A little eyes contacts~
~A warm hug~
~It's just anything, as long as I can feel it~

我开学，开学咯！！！

2011-09-14T20:55:00.000+08:00

回想去几天前。。。。

星期日那天，我回到了宿舍。
我本来以为我们是住回之前有住过的K12。
怎知道，一去到，
我找不到小瓜讲的地方。
于是，打给她，在确认多一次。
原来，我走错了宿舍。
啊啊啊～～～～～～
晴天霹雳！！！
安哥已经走了～～
没办法，只好硬着头皮走过去，还好我不是带着很多东西（那些事晚上才搬），而且幸好不是很远。

就这样，
我开始了我人生中一个人第一次打扫一间房间的滋味。

很不幸运的，
我的房间没有桌子椅子，
必须自己去搬。
没办法，我只好去一些还没回来，而且他们房间有桌子椅子的偷回来了。
搬到我死死下。

途中，
经过薇薇的房间，看见他的男朋友在帮她打扫。
我真的很羡慕。
为什么平时都是我帮男朋友打扫房间，
他却没有帮我打扫过咧？
*心里不平衡*

房间风扇，脏得要命。
不懂几十年没有抹过。
灰尘又黑又多，抹到我死死下:(

终于，好不容易把整间房间抹完。
累到我死死下。

休息一下，
瑞钻回到了。
她房间也是没有桌子，
我又开始寻桌子的旅程了。

不久，爱媛回来了。
帮忙她搬东西上来。

我真的累垮了！！！！
终于可以休息一下了。。。

终于到了差不多八点晚上，
必须去搬我的东西来宿舍了。
搬完后，
我只能说，
我的身体已经不是我的了。

我很累！真的很累！！
虽然我很累，
可是我晚上还不是睡得很熟。。。
为什么？
难不成这是老化的迹象？？

不过，见到好朋友们，
我还是很开心咧～
话说个不停～～～

事端

2011-09-14T19:43:00.002+08:00

说实在的，我都到了这个年纪，可是我还是不明白为什么我会那么容易动怒。
或许就像是昆虫类所谓的不成熟。

话说，我在某一天参加了中学的一场的歌唱比赛。
我会参加完全是因为我妹妹啦。
她不停地游说我参加。
结果我就推掉了一份工作陪她参加咯。

我们是比赛前两天才决定要唱什么歌。
《失恋无罪》就是我们觉得唱的最有感觉的一首歌。
所以，就选了这首歌。

本来，我们的目标是冠军的。
（我不是在骄傲，是因为我要帮他拿到奖金）
可是，由于我们缺乏练习，
她又要练自己的独唱，我又出去KL做我的东西，
所以我们的胜算已经减低了。
再来，她竟然忘词。
呵呵。。

所以，我们得了第三名。
或许你们觉得这样还可以那第三名，那很好啊。
虽然我真的不是觉得很滋味，可是既然是比赛，就只好认了。

当时，真的蛮多人为我们觉得深深不忿。
真的要谢谢他们对我们的看好和支持。

事端发生时在于我妹妹在中秋晚会的时候会表演《傻瓜》。
可是，她表演前竟然打电话跟我讲那是歌唱比赛合唱冠军竟然在面子书暗喻她唱得不好听。
不过，但是我听到八只耳朵，就告诉她什么都不要想，做好表演回家再告诉我。

回到家，她很激动地把一切来龙去脉告诉我。
而且，她还告诉我，我们那场比赛竟然是不公平的。
其中一位评判是他们的亲戚，这我已经知道了。
可是我相信她会做出公平的裁决。
殊不知，原来他们的歌曲、服装、装扮等等都是那位评判给的意见。
这简直就是。。。真的让我很无言。
《傻瓜》就是他们之前打算拿来比赛的歌曲。
所以他们才这么暗喻我妹。

真是的！！
Hello!!!你们以为你们唱歌很好听吗？
得到那一次的冠军就以为赢了全世界吗？
你们可以满意和欣赏自己觉得自己拥有的‘实力’。
但，你们真的还不够格批评别人。
得空的话，就去多点书，增进自己的见识。

挑起事端还要扮无辜，真的是。。。

还是一句，人在做，天在看。
报应迟早会降临。

不要再惹我们了，我发起癫来，连我自己都怕！

还有，谢谢你自动帮我清除了我friend list的垃圾。^^

要开学咯

2011-09-10T17:56:00.000+08:00

四个月的假期，真的像箭一样飞得很快。
下个星期一，就是我的开学日。

心情很矛盾，既是说不上来的期待与开心；亦是说不上来的失落与紧张。
我是一个很奇怪的人，会很好奇新环境，而且会很快的适应新环境，然后就厌倦了。
这次开学，我们将搬到新的宿舍。
没去看过环境，所以真的不知道是怎么样的。但，负面的传闻还真听不少。
而且，我是最后一年了。‘末期学生’哈哈！！必须要做final year project，压力是难免的，真的是怕自己做不来。因为我之前六个学期就是浑浑噩噩地过了，根本不知道自己有认真地读过什么。

我开心时因为我可以回去又寄托的生活了，
可是同时也代表我有一段时间不能回家。
以我的性格来说，一定是到处乱跑的。

真的希望这个学期能顺顺利利地渡过。

Singapore Trip (Adventure)

2011-09-08T22:42:00.000+08:00

Yay!! After sooo many years, I managed to travel out of my country, (even though it's just a neighbour island), but I'm still very excited and happy with that. ^^

Opps, before I ran out of my memory, I would like to share with you all how dumpness am I!!!! We need passport when we are going abroad, right? And we need to renew our passport if the passport is expired, right? Okay, here the story goes..

I went out to KL from Lipis, because I thought my passport is at Serdang's house. After I reached there, I kept searching around the house but I still could not find it. At last, I called my bf and told him with the tone fulled of sadness:' I can't come and look for you already, I could not get my passport :(.' He replied:' Your Lipis house ler? Ask your sister search for you see got or not.'

Then i immediately called my sister and ask her do me this favour. And thanks god!! She found it! THUS, I've to rush back to Lipis and renew my passport at Raub. Finally, everything is done! *phew*

(You say la, i dump or not??!!)

This is the first time I went abroad all the way alone. So, quite nervous and excited. I didn't see him for one month. But I feel it's been so long time. LOL

At first, I think I'm lucky because I get a quite cheap bus ticket. And I dunno why my name is on the ticket. ==

But when we reach Singapore custom, the driver just pass us to another bus driver and the bus' destination is not heading the place that we wanted to go. Thank god that I'm so lucky to meet up with two kind-hearted Philippians. They pay for the taxi fees and I told them I do not have Singapore dollars with me due to the lackness of time to exchange. Maybe it is the consequences of the cheap bus ticket =.=

And finally I met up with HIM!! I miss him alot lot!!! Dunno why everytime after we separated for long time, I will feel shy when I see him. HAHA!! Very funny right? Even though we are very close. Swt. ><

During these 10 days, we went to many places. Some places he also never went before. And all these are new to me, so I called this as Singapore Adventure^^

And he gave me a card which something like touch and go in Malaysia. I though he purposely prepared it for me at first, but at last I found out he found out another card at somewhere, so he got another extra card now =.=

Anyway, I do enjoy this adventure with him. Every place we went, every foods we ate, every joy we shared, it's memorable. Even though we have some arguments, but I think the argument had tied us more even close.

I miss our pillow talk.

I miss our stupid action like doing 'put snake'. LOL

I miss our walking like no way to go.

I miss our food hunting.

I miss EVERYTHING!!!

And now, I miss you the most!

I'm so glad that you get a considerable job there. I'm happy with the mind and thoughts you shared with me. It shows that you always have me in your mind and willing to let me stay forever in your life. I appreciate it. ^^

Oh ya, I've uploaded some photos in my facebook if you wanna have a look on my Singapore Adventure. Just very less photos i took, as I more enjoy walking around with him, and talking with him.

At last, a very happy and enjoyable Singapore Trip. I will be back soon!!! For you, Singapore!!!

400th Days

2011-09-08T12:46:00.045+08:00

It's our 400th days after so long.

But that little creature said 'very fast hoh' =.=

For me, I would say,' fast meh? We're like knowing each other and being together for so long.'

I'm back to Malaysia now. But I'm happy bcuz we manage to celebrate our 13th months together =) We went to Astons Specialities in Singapore to have our dinner. Just simple as that. But I'm happy with that.

My pillow which is now belongs to him ^^

I love how he act like Octopus ^^

He do it as I ORDER him to do so.. Muaahaha^^

The only pic that I took during our meal. We straightly have our main course after they served it.

After the meal. Yay!! My head smaller than him ^^

And I think I'm leng nui, he's leng cai in dis pic *wink*

Before the day I left, I woke up in the morning and prepare breakfast for him before he went to work. Here it is.

Frankly to say, it's just a very simple and easy breakfast. But it is my first time purposely prepare a breakfast for someone. And with honour, you're the first^^

People said should enjoy the process while you doing something. I'm not really enjoy the process of cooking but is the time I look at his satisfaction eating on the meal. I hope I can keep enjoy it like how I enjoy on that day.

I love you, Mr.Tang.

**Happy 400th days with you**

Working Holiday Visa

2011-09-05T17:39:00.000+08:00

This post should be done since a month ago. But it's pending till now due to I do not have much blogging mood.

Have you ever heard of working holiday visa? I know about this from my Mr.Tang, but I know more about this from a friend I know during my holiday part time job, Natalie.
She's going to Australia next coming week if I'm not mistaken and she just came back from New Zealand. She is the one who encouraged me to take working holiday visa to Australia and New Zealand. She told me that we only have the chance before 30 years old. And she's 29 years old this year. But she never give up the chance to widen her knowledge and vision.

I've done some research on working holiday visa. For your information (in case if you don't know, as a Malaysian, we're only allowed to have our working-holiday life in New Zealand and Australia.
Below is the main information, if you want for further information, u can just simply google it up =)

For New Zealand,

This scheme allows 1,150 young citizens of Malaysia annually:

have a Malaysian passport that‘s valid for at least three months after your planned departure from New Zealand
be at least 18 and not more than 30 years old

not bring children with you
hold a return ticket or sufficient funds to purchase such a ticket*

have a minimum of NZ$2,250 available funds to meet your living costs while you’re here
meet our health and character requirements
be coming to New Zealand to holiday, with work or study being secondary intentions for your visit
not have been approved a visa under a Working Holiday Scheme before.

For Australia,

Eligibility

You may be eligible for a Work and Holiday visa if you:

are aged 18 to 30 years (inclusive) on the date you apply

hold a passport from Malaysia

have a letter of good conduct from your government

have not previously held a Working Holiday (subclass 417) or Work and Holiday (subclass 462) visa

Education Requirements

You must hold a degree, or have successfully completed at least two (2) years of undergraduate university study.

English Language Requirements

You must provide documentary evidence of your English level when you lodge your visa application. You must provide evidence that you have done one of the following:

Achieved an IELTS average band score of at least 4.5 based on the four test components of speaking, reading, writing and listening in a test conducted no more than two (2) years before lodging the visa application. For visa purposes you only need to sit the General Training Module, or

Achieved a TOEFL score of 133 on a computer based test, or 450 on a paper based test or 45-46 on an internet-based test, no more than two (2) years before lodging the visa application, or

Passed the Occupational English Test no more than two (2) years before lodging the visa application, or

Completed all years of primary education and at least three (3) years of secondary education at an educational institution in which all instruction was conducted in English, or

Completed at least five (5) years of secondary education (high school) at an educational institution in which all instruction was conducted in English, or

Completed a post-secondary qualification that required at least two (2)years of full-time study or training, in which all tuition was in English, or

Successfully completed, in Australia, at least one (1) year of full-time study or equivalent part-time study towards a degree, higher degree, diploma or associate diploma at an institution or institutions where all the instruction was conducted in English

Evidence of Funds

You must provide a certified copy of a bank statement showing you have access to appropriate funds, generally at least AUD$5,000 to support the initial stage of your holiday. This amount will vary depending on your proposed length of stay and the extent of your travel.

You must also provide evidence of a return or onward ticket or the funds for a fare to leave Australia.

I really wish to have it once in my life.
I told my mummy about this, I know she's worry about me.
I told my boyfriend about this too, he seems like not letting me go. Because he think that I'm not independent and stupid enough. >.<

Well, I still have some times to think about it and ask for more opinion.
But, It's in my wishlist now. ^^

It's a long boring post I know. But just wanna jot down so I will not forget this. LOL

WORKING-HOLIDAY VISA!!!!

Self- Loving

2011-09-05T16:58:00.000+08:00

I went for a Singapore trip and I'm sure you'll know if you're keeping an eye on my facebook update ^^

During this short trip, I took quite a lot self-cam pics, which I din do it for such a quite period. Nothing much about my Singapore trip in this post but my self loving pics. ^^

My dark circle =(

Could you ever notice the 'black green' on my leg? LOL

This is my current profile pic in facebook ^^

I love my make up in dis pic, do you?

Those pics above are not edited and taken with iphone front camera =)
Seriously, I really don't know how to take a very nice pic.
My every self-cam pics are almost same =.= (except for my make up larrrhh of course)

And I always force my little creature praise me pretty after i made up myself ^^
Although I'm not very leng lui, but I still love myself, alot lot!!!!

**不要只顾着爱别人，也要爱自己***

重色轻友

2011-08-17T18:05:00.000+08:00

我记得我们刚开始的时候，朋友们都投诉，我为了你都荒废了自己的学业，变得很不负责任。没错，我认！我的确是重色轻友。我相信每个人都是这样的。

我现在就是在为我的重色轻友作多余的解释^^

另一半就是会陪着你终生的人（如果你们能很幸运地完成结婚生子，没有外遇的幸福生活过一辈子。当然争吵一定是免不了的），不论生活是怎样，既然选择了你，就没有打算要离开过（起码我是）。所以，另一半就是除了自己，就是人生中最重要的人。

家人，他们就是有种怎样都切骨不离皮的感觉。就算几百年没有见到他们你都不会觉得陌生。因为他们就是与你有种莫名的血缘关系。所以，他们更希望你可以找到属于你的另一半。因为他们比谁都还希望你过得好。

朋友，说真的，我朋友不算很多。但，很多都是愿意在我需要帮助的时候伸出援手。真的很感激。可是，你却有种欠他们太多，你会不好意思的那种感觉。就是会有一层很奇怪的膜。你们都深知不可以刺穿这层膜。因为朋友毕竟是朋友。

我的死党们，都很有分寸。至少比我有。我就是那种会冒犯到对方得私隐的人。不过随着年龄越来越大，我也收敛了不少。

我承认我是重色轻友。
但，我并没有忘记我身边的人。
只是我的瞳孔因为某人而放大，而只看到他。

所以，我的亲朋戚友，
我还很爱你你们的哟~~
而且，我真的很容易满足。
一个赞赏，一个拥抱，一个需要；
都能让我很开心。

希望你们能明白！！ =)

爱。动力。

2011-08-17T18:00:00.001+08:00

我是个相当需要爱才会有动力的人。

昆虫类嫌我太不独立了，他甚至怀疑我跟他一起之前，我是怎样渡过我的日子。我当时只是觉得很气！因为我讨厌被人说我不独立！！

不过，当我冷静下来后，我已经完全可以解开这个疑惑了。

众所皆知，我是个依赖感非常强的人。

我喜欢依赖我身边的人，我也很享受被身边的人依赖。

这样你自己才会觉得自己活在这个世上才有一种被重视的感觉。

同样地，当你被依赖的时候，你就会觉得自己可以保护到对方。

所以，人使要互相依赖。

独立。

我可以很独立。

我可以一个人搭巴士回家。

我可以一个人完成只要是我觉得想要完成的事。

至于一个人旅行，我是怕寂寞而且我很胆小，所以对我来说是不可能的。

至于以前我没有爱情的滋润，竟然还可以生存？

简单~

我没有爱情的滋润，可是我有友情和亲情的滋润。

诶？怎么现在我却好像没有爱情，没有了你，却好像不可以了呢？

更简单~

因为当一个女生恋爱的时候，会遗忘全世界。

眼里和心里只有你一个。
不明白？
就是说恋爱前，生活重心就是在朋友和家人的身上；
恋爱后，生活重心是落在你的身上，再来才到朋友和家人。

总结来说，我想是一个非常需要爱的人。

我很贪心。

我亲情、友情和爱情都想同时能拥有。

不过目前，我最想要的就是爱情。

现在这个年龄阶段就是要享受爱情嘛。

那么快从爱情变感情再变亲情，怎样过一辈子哦？

总结就是，

我需要爱作为我的动力。

推动我向前的力量。

Siew Kong Oppa,

A la soh???

Chung mael Saranghae~~ ^^

♥ Our First Anniversary ♥

2011-08-12T20:02:00.000+08:00

Happy first anniversary to you!! And thanks for your chocosss ^^

I should have blog this on 4th of August. But that day I went out to Serdang and there's no internet supply for me to blog. I do have my phone, but I wish to organize well my precious first anniversary blog post. =] So, urhmmm ^^

Apparently, we've been separated once again. This time he went to Singapore for building up his career. If his plan did not change, then this will only be the first step in building up his career. Again, wish you luck ^^

I always wonder that why does the one I chose got such big wild ambition? I'm not very sure this is a good or bad one, or perhaps both side. Yes, I always proud of having such a ambitious boy with me, means he will try his best to get what he wants. In short, he is a highly motivated and have the desire and urge for improvement, for himself and his family's life.

He's a good friend, he loves helping friends around him. I used to be his friend before. My best friend were his housemates for 1 year plus. So I can definitely can proudly says that, He IS A GOOD FRIEND.

He's not really a good son for his mother, but i know that he loves, respect(put aside how he talks to his mother 1st), and i can see he is really protecting his mother. He is a smoker, not heavy but not light smoker. But he manage to hiding this fact from his mother for few years. =.= Maybe most of the time he is not at home. But his mother found out this after he came back from Aus. She found ciggarrates in his room. I can see how sad of his mother. And surprisingly, he promised his mother that HE WILL QUIT! (But in fact he don't) Everytime I found out that he smoked, I played with him, I wanna tell your mummy! Then his reaction really outta my expectation. He is really begging me not to tell his mother. He never begged to me like that before. I surprised. Additionally point, his revenge plans also because of his mother.

He's a good brother, too. I can see it how he treat his sister. Taken away the responsible from his parents in order to pay for his sis's loans. Although the way he talk to his family which I totally freaked up, but I know that, he loves his family.

But very sad, he's not a very good lover. At the starting, he is. He took care everything on me. Sweet words, warm cares and blah blah blah.. But now?? Sad cases.. Better not talk about it. But the main point is I still do love him very much. *Speechless*
Still love him truthly deeply madly. LOL

I also don't get why, but it is just like this way. It's just happened. ^^
Maybe this phrase (except I love him) will describe and explain why I still stay with him.

"每一朵玫瑰都有刺，正如每个人的性格里，都有你不能容忍的部分。爱护每一朵玫瑰，并不是得努力的把它的刺根除，只能学习如何不被她的刺刺伤，还有，如何不让自己的刺刺伤别人。——《玫瑰花的哲学》"

Dear Siew Kong Oppa,

Do you know that? Just when I think I couldn't possibly love you any more, you do that special little something that takes me to a new level. ♥
I'm happy u walked into my life and I'm overjoyed that you always made me smile,even if you didn't mean to.The bad thing is that I miss you so FREAKING much! I Love You! ♥

Regards,
Your cutie little fat ^^

重视

2011-08-02T01:49:00.000+08:00

无论是成熟还是幼稚的人，都需要被重视。
自己的想法与感受一直不停被忽视，你会好过吗？

一直乞讨着这些‘重视’，把自己搞得一团糟。
真正会重视你的人，不需要你去乞讨。

觉悟吧!

无题

2011-08-01T12:54:00.000+08:00

最近，我的情绪都因为感情而忽起忽落。
我的部落格写的都是我负面的想法和心情。
其实，我真的很不喜欢那样的自己。
我很讨厌自己闹情绪。
我很渴望拥有那些不论发生什么事都可以很好的处理自己的情绪的人。
（亏我还读什么‘人类发展’）

我很怀疑到底有多少人还有来看看我的部落格。
就连我最想被那个关心的人，也遗忘了这里，忘了这里是我们更了解彼此的地方。

你告诉我，
你不是不爱我了。
只是你有更重要的事情要做。
这点我完全可以体谅，真的。
可是，我真的不了解为什么态度也可以改变？
是我想太多？还是我太敏感？

说真的，有很多时候我真的很讨厌你。
可是不过一下子，我又发现我不能讨厌你，因为我真的很爱你。
你应该真的没有察觉到我真的很痛苦吧？
虽然我有开口告诉过你我的感受，
可是你一定是觉得我在闹脾气吧？
你到底有多久没有真正的了解我了？

你也可以说，我不了解你。
因为你就是这样的人。
我真的尝试地在接受，一直不断地改变自己。
可是，有用吗？

原来，太爱一个人，真的会让人崩溃。
可笑的是，我还是选择继续崩溃。

Should have be.

2011-07-29T00:19:00.000+08:00

It should be a happy period for me since I've waited for this for 3 months.
But, it seems like not exactly happened with what I thought. Maybe I thought it in too perfection way. [@.@]

There's too many outta my expectation. High expectation caused low satisfaction. (in negative way) And no!! I could not control myself to think in that way which it's completely a TRUTH!

I'm not complaining. I'm just try to share out my mind. I wish to find someone who can understand me. Not completely but at least more than what you gave me. {Maybe it apparently showed that 'the more we get, the more we want'.}

There's too many thing I saw which is different from what I know and "imagine' before. No doubt, I'm definitely very good in IMAGINATION!!!!! This is so true!!

Sometimes (quite alotsa time), i wish to escape from your side. I thought that you've changed. Yes, indeed you are. Or, both of us, perhaps.
Yea, I know. People keep changing everyday. People's mind, thought, and blah blah blah.. I could not expect that you're still the same you with no slightly different with the one i just know you few years ago.

And one question that I would like to point out, is our love still remain like last time? Does it changed? Can you answer me for this?
When our minds and thoughts are changed, how can we still love a person that we disagree or we start to feel irritates on them? I DUNNO!!! Can anyone answer me this??

I still do love you. But I feel that something goes wrong in between.

Can I get back the old you? Or this is the only real you?

It should be the sweetest period after so long. It should be.

But it does not.

ΞΞΞΞΞΞΞΞ

2011-07-20T02:53:00.001+08:00

夜深睡不着，真的是久违了的事.

人,还真的不能空闲下来。
时间多了，真的不知道可以做什么.只能把多余的时间来想这想那.

开始看不见了。
开始迷糊了。
开始动摇了。

一直坚信的，
一直以为的，
一直清楚的，
全都乱了。

我不知道是不是件好事.

太多事，让我混淆。
太多事，让我错乱。

我的未来啊，你会是怎样的呢?

我看不见你....

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~.~

2011-07-08T14:18:00.000+08:00

因为害怕失去，所以不停地想抓紧。
反而让自己失去得更多。

失去了快乐，
失去了自由，
失去了可爱，
失去了自我。

所以我决定，
好好让自己放肆一下。

把所有不好的念头抛掉。
还给你一个正常的我。 =)

.Untitled.

2011-07-08T00:40:00.001+08:00

[Busy] is not a good excuse to tell the one that you love that you got no time to take care everything of her. Okay, maybe EVERYTHING is a little bit over, but at least her feeling, her thought you must take care bah~

I've had enough of take good care of your feeling. Maybe you think that I'm not doing that good. But I did and I've already tried my best. Really. I'm not blaming. I did all these volunteer because of you. And now I don't see any point that can let me stay like that. I'm just tired, and started to feel worthless.

The way you react, the way you talk, the way you 'concern' me, the way you said you miss me. I just can't feel any sincerity of it. Perhaps, you did. But mostly, you just feel that you are responsible to do so, and that's why you do. That's it.

So, I'm gonna do whatever I like. Whatever that can makes me happy and enjoy.

是不是谁给的不够，还是谁放的太多？
i like this sentence very much. How about you?
I'm the one who putting too much. And I'm gonna keep it back.
I really scare of getting hurt. Gonna back to my protection layer before I get any hurt again.

Drunk. Free. Crazy.

2011-07-07T19:59:00.000+08:00

Wish to get drunk out of sudden.

I also sweat gao gao for myself.

I really don't wish to think.

I'm tired of thinking.

I've be a good girl for so long time.

I'm gonna off my hp and out for a trip few days.

Can I?

I feel wanna relax.

Free everything outta my mind.

It's tiring.

Who can rescue me?

I wanna have a crazy life for a few days.

Can I?

Lost

2011-07-07T19:35:00.000+08:00

Okay. This is gonna be another EMO post again.
So sorry but I have no choice.
I couldn't find anywhere out to release my mood, the voice inside my heart.
I dunno who to talk with as I dun wanna to trouble them because of my personal emo.

When i was working at Neway, someone told me that I'm a person who will easily trust on what people told me. In short, I easily get cheated. Seriously, I don't think he is right as I think that myself very hard to trust on somebody. I am a so called inspector. I like to find out everything which get suspected by me. And with no doubt, i always never failed in finding out the answer and the truth.

Once I found out there's something suspected, I will not ever trust you anymore. Even though you think that I'm believing in you, that's just my surface expression. My deeply thought will not believe in you easily. That's me! (whether you like it or not)

While the moment I started to suspect you everytime, it is the moment that you lost your trust from me. Maybe your explanation does make sense for you, and maybe for everyone, but not me. Seriously not for me.

I will combine all the matter that you think that it is not a matter, and make it into a piece of story. Thus, it becomes the best evidence that why I lost trust in you. Maybe you could not understand the way how I'm thinking. But never mind, as long as there's no bluffing, no lying, no hiding, no betraying, no any others thing that will broke my trust towards you, then CONGRATULATIONS!!! There will be no LOST in between our relationship.

But, can you make it?
How long and how far you can do it?

You can easily break your trust on somebody, but hard to build it back.

So, don't ever try to lost it, especially MINE!!

Sincerely thanks!

Easy Going

2011-07-07T19:13:00.000+08:00

I am really an easy going person.

You treat me good, i treat you well.

I am really an easy going person.

You treat bad, i treat you worse.

I am really an easy going person.

Easy going to angry.

Easy going to suspect.

Easy going to cry.

Easy going to think much.

Please! Do bear in mind!

Thanks.

I need an answer

2011-07-07T14:06:00.001+08:00

I watched a Taiwan drama named: 'A Fierce Wife' these few days when I'm in home. While I'm watching, memories keep flashed back. It brought me into the drama series. The feeling, the hurt, the willing to stand strong and blah blah blah... every scene in the drama stimulate me a lot..

But then, it caused me think of my mummy as well. I always ask her watch this drama when she called me. Lol. This is so like her case. But now she manage to stand strong and everything is end. I mean my so called 'father' and my mummy.

The day they met up, I'm wondering what is her feeling? Do she still love him? Or she hate him? I saw the way she talked to him, every words also fulled of teased and sarcastic meaning. But he deserved it. He did!

And for me, from my parents' incidence, it caused me not so believe in guys. 'Thanks' to my past experience, I always think a lot when I'm facing uncertain thing like I could not find my bf, or he did not send a goodnight msg to me before he sleep. I think a lot. Really. But I believe in him, that he would not betray me (Erm, maybe for now he would not. Teehee :p). I really do. But still, I suspect a lot. I pay very very very close attention on his fb, msn, msgs, and everything. I still rmb he told me this : You came here just for checking me??!!!

I know, you were angry bcuz you think that I do not believe you. Just like how I feel you do not believe in me. We love each other, so we scare to lose each other. We try our best to secure each other aside. I know you understand this as well :)

The heroin in the drama does believe her husband very much when she do not know any betraying of his husband. She is a kind, lovely, i think every praising words also suitable for her. Frankly, too good to be true. I don't think there's still a woman like her nowadays, which will not worry her husband betray him. She is not that kinda super full of confidence woman. But she still believe in her husband, until the truth has been revealed, only she started and learned not to believe anyone too deeply.

I've learned. From myself past experience, my mummy's experience, and from the drama too. It encouraged and remind me not to put your hope on someone or something. If your hope is gone, you will get hurt so badly.

And I'm so wondering, what a guy needs and wants?

Love? Money? Family? Friends? Freedom?

A secure and happy life? Adventure life? Rich life? Or...?

How and when I can get the answer?!

I know I'm a weirdo. No choice, who ask me got so many free times to think so many questions? And I seriously will go to find out the answer!!!

HOW? I think i will go and interview my guy friend around me. *wink*

♥ ♥ ♥Challenging but Smooth's 10th and 11th month Anniversary ♥ ♥ ♥

2011-07-04T00:56:00.000+08:00

Dear Mr. Tang Siew Kong,

We both know that we are so busy for our job for these few months especially in June.

Our working time is totally different. I work morning shift but you work for night shift and you do not have any off day in a week. So we really barely could talk to each other. And for that, we getting more appreciate the time we are able to talk with each other.

You are certainly freaking tired after your whole working day.. Same do i..But we still wanna talk to each other.. it is just because we know that that's the only tiny chance that we can talk in a week.. It is a new and tough experience for us. But i think that is another way which can educate me become more tolerate.. (Seriously I less to get really angry with your abandonment, and if you think I AM, i'm just 'nao gai' all the way :p)

We've passed through our 10th and 11th month anniversary silently due to our busyness. We're heading to our 12th month anniversary. Oh my! And most importantly, you're coming back to me..

YOU'RE COMING BACK BY NEXT WEEK!

I always imagine the moment when i see you, what will I do?

Hug u tightly and cry? Look at you and smile? I dunno.. maybe both of them?? LOL

But no matter what expression that i'll give u, I'm certainly happy till deadly in my heart.. and i know that you'll know that ^^

We successfully pass through this stupid tough distance challenge. Salute for us! =)

I know there's alot challenges coming to us.. As long as our heart is tied up together, never let go, I believe that we can go through every challenges which are waiting for us in the future =)

Tang Siew Kong, let's fight together ya~

Last but not least, the important one, I love you~

♥ ♥ ♥ Happy 11th month anniversary! ♥ ♥ ♥

Regards,

Miss Lim Chiau Chyi

A little updates about my June story~

2011-07-04T00:25:00.001+08:00

My last updated blog is on 31st May, which mean, I'E ABANDONED MY BLOG FOR A MONTH!!!!! [sowie]

My previous month nothing special.. keep working all the day.. but have a really nice experience with neway colleagues.. working together.. having fun together.. Frankly, really quite heave to leave them.. but due to my personal reasons: 1st, i super dun like the operation manager there.. dunno how to respect those who help him to operate the outlet.. 2nd, i get a better job offer from SSF company.. It perhaps a good news for me at the beginning.. Everything was so smooth until unbelievable.. I was wondering is there any trick inside..?

But i think I got no chance to prove it anymore.. When i told the manager that i do not have any transport to go for work, he even offer me car allowance just want me to work for him?? what a ridiculous allowance for me.. I haven't start to work for him, he do not know my job performance, how can he simply offer me that much?? WEIRD!

But nevermind, i got no chance to prove all things.. now what i can do is goyang kaki in my house.. search is that any job which can fulfilled my ONLY ONE requirement: TRANSPORTATION PROVIDED!!

~God bless me~

300th day

2011-05-31T18:47:00.002+08:00

我最近都只能用电话来上网。
因为我的电脑又有问题了。唉…真的很衰...
所以这也是篇短po...
很快的，我们一起已经300天了。
虽然日子不是很长，但我总觉得我们一起已经很久了。(不懂是不是代表我们会很快厌倦对方。)
话题日渐减少。
因为距离，因为分离，
导致我们开始不清楚对方的去向，对方的行踪。
说实在的，这些真的撩乱了我对你和这份感情的信心，觉得非常没有安全感...
你对我的不安也似懂非懂...
我们都对这个距离很无奈。
惟有向前看,才能遇见我们终极的幸福...
所以真的,无论几难熬，我都会撑下去的...为我们的未来加油!

300天快乐!!

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为谁而玩?

2011-05-28T05:40:00.002+08:00

一群孩子在一位老人家门前嬉闹，叫声连天。几天过去，老人难以忍受。

于是，他出来给了每个孩子5块钱，对他们说:''你们让这儿变得很热闹,我觉得自己年轻了不少，这点钱表示谢意。''

孩子们很高兴，第二天仍然来了，一如既往地嬉闹。老人家再出来，给了孩子3块钱.他解释说,自己没有收入，只能给少一些，孩子仍然兴高采烈地走了。

第三天,老人只给了每个孩子1块钱.

孩子们勃然大怒，''一天才一块钱，知不知道我们多辛苦!"他们向老人家发誓，他们再也不会为他玩了!

这个寓言中,老人将孩子们的内部动机"为自己快乐而玩"变成了外部动机"为得到金钱而玩",而他操纵着金钱这个外部因素，所以也操纵了孩子们的行为。寓言中的老人，像不像是你的老板,上司?而金钱,像不像是你的工资,奖金等各种各样的外部奖励?

从现在开始培育自己的内部评价体系，让学习和工作变成"为自己而玩".

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2011-05-25T06:41:00.001+08:00

I hate punch card!!
I hate distance!!!
I hate working!!!
I hate i hate i hate!!!

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First day in neway

2011-05-11T05:02:00.001+08:00

Never thought i can be so tired!
Stand for 8hours. Talk for 6 hours. Wait back home for an hour. I almost dead!
Feel so suffer for the first day. Everything is new.. new people, new environment, new working style. Need to take some times to blend up myself with them.
But i think the big prob is i get tired easily.. how sad:(
It's hard for me to find someone to chat after i fong gong neither you. Sad story. Haiz..
Dunno why feel wanna give up this job. 3 mins passion! Zzzz

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Huhu~~~~

2011-05-07T20:10:00.000+08:00

Finally!! I’ve finished my 6^th sem in UPM!!! Can throw all the books and notes away!!! Yuuhoooooooooooooo~~~~~

After two tough weeks, finally all the burdens gone but unfortunately, I get sick as well =[

But then, I got no time to rest. I need to move my stuffs to my new working hostel and shop for the groceries that I need for my job. For your information, I will start work at Neway Puchong as receptionist on Monday.

I wanted to work as customer services for long time ago. But very weird, I don’t like to serve people like waitress and promoter. But I like to give information to customers when they come to me and ask for my help. And for sure, I will smile to them. When I was Celcom promoter last time, yes, I did smile when I promote to them, but I feel shameful because it’s like I’m forcing them to buy my product.

But the job I always wanted to do is totally different. I like to serve them when they come to me automatically, which means I no need to pull customers to me. And I like to smile with those customers. ^^

Can’t wait for the job! But I start to regret why I’m so wanted to start the job so early. I haven’t rest at all!! Sigh.. I will not be able to online as that often as I will not bring my laptop there until I’ve make sure the place is safe!

But somehow, I finally can accomplish one of my must-do-list. I hope it is better than what I’ve thought. And I really hope can learn something there.

My dear friends, wish me luck ya^^

更新=]

2011-05-06T21:09:00.000+08:00

我，又生病了=(
虽然没有比上次严重，可是我明天有考试咧，而且还是我越来越差的数学。
头都大了=[

呃。。。
原来，
你真的是有这种魔力。
当我听到你的声音，头就不痛了，鼻子也舒服一点了。
很神奇咧。。

再来，
就是uncle送饭给我。
他看到我就炸我一句：你头大大，身小小。=.='''
其实，我真的没有那么瘦，只是他看不惯而已。
他打包的饭真的是够我吃一天吧。

不是角度的问题，真的是很大包的。

我一定要赶快好起来。

拜一就开工了。不能带着软趴趴的身子去上班！

明天考试加油！

加油加油加油！！！！！

我要的，只不过是很想和你簡簡單單的在一起

2011-05-06T20:44:00.000+08:00

我要的，

有個人和我一起吃飯，

只要開開心心的，

路邊攤一樣可以吃的很滿足。

我要的，

手牽手，快快樂樂的一起去壓馬路。

我要的，

每寫一篇日誌，寫一個心情，有個人，始終在我身邊看著我感慨萬千，

給我回复，回應著我的感受

讓整個世界都知道，

我們

很幸福很幸福。

-

我要的，

在我難過的時候，什麼話都可以給那個你說。

一句親愛的，別難過，你還有我。

心裡的難過就會好很多很多

因為我知道，

有個人在我的身後默默的支持我，關心我。

我要的，

在我孤單的時候，有個人給我發發短信，讓我聽聽你的聲音。

這對我來說，比什麼有趣的書，好玩的遊戲都重要，都能讓我欣慰。

因為我知道，

有個人，雖然不能見我，陪著我，

但是心裡卻一直在掛念我。

我要的，

一聲叮囑，一聲關愛，一句問候。

吃飯了麼？餓了麼？累了麼？

其實，

對我都是珍貴的，暖暖的。

我發誓永遠都不會嫌這樣的你囉嗦。

一句我們一起，什麼困難我都能扛下去。

其實，

在我心裡都會蕩漾出最幸福的漣漪。

我不要溫柔的甜言蜜語，不要海枯石爛的誓言。

我要的，

只是一個緊緊的無聲擁抱;

只是要一只能牢牢牽住我，不會隨便丟掉的小手。

我不要你每一分鐘都陪著我，

你也有你的生活，我不想干涉你太多。

我要的，

只是你能夠相信我，

說得出就能做得到的行動，

溫暖著我的心底，充滿幸福的滋味。

♥ ♥ ♥9th Month Anniversary♥ ♥ ♥

2011-05-04T00:01:00.000+08:00

Soon to be, today is the starting day of our 10^th month. We’ve been passed through 9months together with sweet, happy, argue, sad, tolerate and u blah blah blah.

This remind me of the video, ‘Strangers, Again’. I’ve tagged the video for you to watch it, but I guess u didn’t watch it, right? The reason you’ll give sure is something like, ‘I’ve got no time to watch arr.. Got time also find you and chat with you lah..’ Am I right? Mr.Tang…? blekkk=p

Maybe it indicates something good if I persuade myself to be in positive thinking that you never worry we will become strangers again, perhaps? LOL

Never mind, I’m going to brief up the story line of the video for you here ^^

The video is mainly emphasis on the stages that every couple will pass through.

First stage, meeting.

You still remember how we met? When we met? Where was our first met place?

Second stage, dating.

Do you still remember the date of our first date? What we’ve done in the first date? Which dating is the most unforgettable for you?

Third stage, honeymoon.

I think we already pass through this stage. HAHA! But sometimes, maybe we are still in honeymoon. *conflict*

Fourth stage, tolerate.

We already start tolerate each other from the day we together, isn’t? But in this stage, one of us maybe feel need to tolerate more with another one (compared with the starting of our relationship).

I think this stage is the crucial one. How we tolerate with each other? Are we willing to tolerate with each other? Never think that ‘is that worth to tolerate with each other?’ We love them, so it’s a must that we learn to tolerate with them.

No one is completely similar and understands what is on your mind in this world. We cannot expect others to think same like just the way we think. Learn to accept other’s thinking. This is what Mr.Tang taught me all the time. Muahaha!!

The final stage, break up.

It ends up those who cannot tolerate with each other, and then, back to strangers again. How wish I can change this stage into marry stage, can we?

These stages are the main ideas in the video. Maybe you’ll think that it’s just a normal video clip, but it affecting my mind thought deeply.

Yes, I’m afraid. I’m afraid that we will become strangers again. I don’t wish this happen, too. There are a lot uncertain things in our future. I really hope that we can go through all these barriers. WE MUST HOLD HANDS IN HANDS TO KILL ALLTHE KANASAI PROBLEM!!! Muahahahaha!!!

In my personal opinion, no matter those still couples, or married, do not let go the one who love easily. I would not let you go easily, hope you do the same =]

I love you, Siew Kong Oppa.♥ ♥ ♥

HAPPY 9^TH MONTH ANNIVERSARY!!!

Dreams

2011-05-03T02:19:00.000+08:00

I do always believe that dream is a way that reflecting what are we thinking, hoping, or maybe something we don't wish it to happen.
No matter it is a sweet good dreams, or a horrible nightmares. It does reflect something in our life.

Dreams.. Although it looks like nothing, but in fact it is affecting our thinking way and mind.

I just hope it can be a positive ending for everything.

It's MAY

2011-05-03T01:32:00.000+08:00

Well, it's 3rd of May.
I had a wonderful starting on May, i guess.
I pass through the interview session easily, never thought the interview will be in that way >.<
I've met up with mummy at the same day, and I reached my lovely home at the same day, too.

The next day, I woke up at 12++ and woke up without any noise interrupted me.
Had the wonderful mom's cooked dishes for whole day+ favourite green bean soup^^
Although there's no one will interrupt me when I'm sleeping in hostel, but the feel sleep at home with hostel is totally different.
Home=warm and fulled of security feels , hostel=cold and fulled of pressure.

And, i missed him, especially at hostel.
Urmm, I miss him all the time, no matter eating, bathing, studying, shitting, talking, singing, laughing, walking, shopping, exam-ing, dreaming, sleeping. I've become a light sleeper, I woke up easily when I heard my phone rang, I'm afraid that I'll missed out his phone call.

So, when I'm back to hostel, the missing feeling become more even stronger.
I miss the time you used to look at me when you're free or after you finished your work and blah blah blah

Alright, stop bull-shitting!!!!!!!!!

The main point in this post is... I hope it is a nice, enjoy, sweet May!!!

*Ignore about the exam*
*Ignore about everything*

12星座的寂寞忍耐度

2011-04-25T18:58:00.000+08:00

一個人的時候不一定就是寂寞的，如果你心中滿滿都是愛，和很多在一起也不一定會感到充實，如果你失去了那份長久的安定感。有人說，會寂寞真的是一種幸福，至少這是一種很原始的感覺，讓人有想要尋找，靠近什麼的動力，但是，沒有人會喜歡寂寞，這種無形的東西，揮之不去，叫之也不會來，躲之不及，也無法迴避，就讓我們一起來看看，星座們面對寂寞的忍耐度都是怎樣的吧。

第一名處女座

說處女對寂寞的忍耐度最高，的確還是和他們對完美的追求有關。挑剔的心是不允許瑕疵在自己的世界出現的，就算有人說他們不知變通，總是把自己逼到死角，那也無所謂。就像是和一個不喜歡的人在一起，在別人眼中再般配又怎樣，自己沒辦法接受都是假的，所以，他們不會因為周圍牽手甜蜜的氣氛，而動搖自己的標準，可以繼續保持寂寞，直到緣分的出現。

第二名摩羯座

現實感強的人，確實對寂寞的忍耐度會高一些，摩羯就是這樣的星座。他們非常理智，知道什麼是自己該做的，什麼又是不該浪費時間去想的，不是不懂浪漫，而是可以把情緒偽裝的很好。如果要他們只是為了感受熱鬧，而放棄現實利益或物質保障，那簡直就是不可能的。在摩羯看來，那種熱烈的場面在人的一生中，本來就是短暫的，而大部分時間都是與寂寞為伴，如果不想被寂寞這種毒藥侵害，就要學會去忍耐。

第三名金牛座

和摩羯的現實精神不同，金牛的感情會隨時爆發，只不過他們會控制好自己的情緒，而不是假裝的不表現出來，時間到了，該怎樣還是會怎樣。成熟穩重的個性成了金牛忍耐寂寞的最佳武器，他們習慣小心翼翼的對待每一件事，也會把傷口和脆弱隱藏起來，一方面是喜歡用堅強的外表武裝自己，另一方面則是因為善解人意的心不願打擾別人，寂寞總有一天會過去的。

第四名雙子座

變化快如風的雙子，在很多看來，是不知寂寞為何物的星座。實際上，那是因為他們還沒有找到自己的風向標，一旦付出了感情，得不到應有的回報，寂寞就會排山倒海般的襲來，淚水代替了笑容，不過還好，新事物總是能很快的吸引到雙子，沒有刻意的忍耐寂寞，卻順其自然的悄悄過度了那段時期，就如同從沒有發生過，被發覺的時候，雙子的天空已經變得如從前般燦爛了。

第五名射手座

人生就是一個寂寞的旅程，射手不是不知道，而是會用自己的方式儘量化解，所以他們追逐著自由與樂趣。生性樂觀，熱情，是個不折不扣的享樂主義派，對於別人的成見，他們可以不在意，但是有人想用對自己好作為藉口來束縛他們，射手一定不會答應。一個人的旅程的確是寂寞的，但為了隨心所欲的尋找快樂，這點寂寞還是會忍受住的。

第六名水瓶座

水瓶會感性的想入非非，也可以理性的冷靜思考，只要他們願意，就能夠按照計劃進行，只是不按常理出牌從來都是水瓶的習慣。極端的事只會想想，不會真的行動，寂寞的忍耐度屬於中等，全由心情決定。可以一整天獨自呆著，也會為了避開孤獨的滋味而到處找人傾訴，很直接的坦言自己是如何的寂寞難耐，當然，發洩是會適可而止的。

第七名巨蟹座

愛猜疑的個性，使得巨蟹很容易缺乏安全感，所以如果真的是自己所愛的，他們會盡心盡力的付出，只希望自己在對方心中能夠站住腳。這樣一個敏感的星座，寂寞的忍耐度充其量就是中等。對於安靜的環境的確可以很快適應，但並不說明願意一個人獨處，本來就對情緒的感受力很強，一旦發現自己是在空等，肯定會受不了的去尋求安慰的溫暖。

第八名牡羊座

從來都把第一當作理所當然的事，牡羊不允許自己跟著別人的步伐走，而是始終處於帶領的位置。寂寞這個詞，他們沒有考慮過出現在自己的世界，忍耐度也就可想而之。一旦有被忘記或冷落的感覺，牡羊就會不爽到抓狂，無數個不甘心的理由就在腦海中冒出來了，當然是主動出擊，冷靜思考這種事不是牡羊的愛好，就算電話打爆，也要找個人出來陪自己解悶。

第九名天蠍座

天蠍的心境就像一個很深很深的迷宮，若是他們不願意發出暗示，你就是再怎麼努力，也是沒法成功走進的，就算誤打誤撞的找到了進口，也會在尋找出口的過程中暈頭轉向而放棄。寂寞這個詞對他們來說，實在有夠沉重，不要看平時一副神秘的姿態，其實是很怕安靜氛圍的，不然也不會執著於對真心的追逐，為了擺脫那種孤獨的無助，甚至會一反常態的積極表現，為的只是完全的佔有。

第十名天秤座

對空虛的極度厭惡，注定天秤對寂寞的忍耐度會比較低。性格極端矛盾，喜好反覆無常，這都是因為天秤一直處於高度緊張的狀態。只要離開了喧鬧的人群，或是離溫暖的港灣稍微遠了一點，就會不安的往熱鬧的地方鑽。天秤一個人的時候總是情不自禁的想太多，平衡之心很難維持太久，心靈的歸屬是他們人生的最終目標，努力遠離飄忽不定，遠離寂寞的氣味。

第十一名雙魚座

溫柔似水的雙魚，是多愁善感的代表星座，他們缺乏自信，又帶有一種充滿魔性的吸引力，常常忽東忽西的不在該在的狀態，非常渴望被愛，被保護，被珍惜，是很難忍受寂寞的。他們可以一整天在家不出門，也可以靜靜的聽歌看書，但唯獨無法接受心裡了無牽掛，就算為愛受傷，就算因情不斷掙扎矛盾，至少證明自己不是一個人，還有一個可以微笑或流淚的對象。在雙魚的世界，無愛便是寂寞，無愛也便不存在。

第十二名獅子座

獨斷專權，喜歡耀武揚威的獅子，對寂寞是最無力抵抗的。開心的事要找人大談特談，直到得到熱烈的回應，不愉快的經歷也要找人放肆的傾訴，當然不是為了得到無謂的安慰，或是同情的眼神，只是他們一個人單獨很難消化。自信心一旦面對無邊的寂寞，就明顯底氣不足，可以很快的壓制住周遭的對抗，卻無法灑脫於獨處，雖然沒有直接尋求援助，但那焦慮的神色已經表露出來了。

Siew Kong Oppa, 我输了=(

怀念

2011-04-24T20:29:00.000+08:00

有些事，真的怀念起来的时候觉得最美。

今天会宿舍的时候，竟然lrt上巧遇郑小瓜。
呵呵～我们真的很有缘。
本来还打算自己被逼要很孤独地回学校，
所以遇到她的那一霎那，我真的是高兴到非笔墨可以形容。

我们好像很久很久没有这样聊天了。
我们聊到彼此最近的状况。
其实，我蛮替她开心的咧。。
她终于。。（似乎）找到了^^

而我听了她所讲的，
也感慨万分。
因为她现在经历的似乎我以前也经历过。
也因为听了她的故事，
让我想起了以前的我们。

变化好大～
呵呵～只能苦笑。。
（小瓜，不代表你的也是这样哦^^）

不过，
我已经决定要做一些改变了。
【优先自己】

不过，
还真的很怀念以前的说。。。

我还是会。。。

2011-04-24T10:13:00.000+08:00

有说不出来的心情。
不想写在面子书上。

我还是会因为要离开家而觉得不舍得。

我还是会因为没有得到回复而失意。

我还是会想很多，
我还是会小气。

原来，
我还是会介意。。。。。。

开始啦

2011-04-24T01:06:00.000+08:00

Final，我会在星期一正式掀起锣鼓迎战～～

再过个九个小时吧～就要回学校了。。

回学校后，我就不能时常上网了。

因为这个宿舍没有提供上网的服务。

虽然我是不能和大番薯玩视频了，

可是换来的是我可以比较专心一点点读书吧。

在家我真的专心不到。

只是想玩而已～

而且，

我觉得我回家一个星期就肥了。

原来，

人一放轻松就会心广体胖，是真的。>.<'''

现在，

只想快点考完。

然后就去打工赚钱。

旅游之梦虽然不懂能不能实现。

但，总想尽力去完成。

我真的很想很想变成有钱人！！！

归题，

大家考试加油啦！！

累

2011-04-23T21:00:00.000+08:00

一个星期study week，study就没什么study到。
想就想了很多东西。

很多东西都开始起变化了。
我也不知道是好的还是坏的。
暂时的我还不是很能适合那个变化。
但我相信，我很快就能适应得很好。

我变了。
变得爱思考了。
一些小事可以让我想足半天。

我变了。
变得不爱睡觉了。
不睡觉只因为心不安。

我变了。
变得神经兮兮了。
一直不停地看看面子书和msn那灯是不是青色的。

我累了，
真的累了。

我看，
是时候恢复正常了。

Physiotherapy

2011-04-23T00:26:00.000+08:00

As mentioned in my previous post, I went to hospital this evening with my bro to do his very first time physiotherapy.

Let the pics tell the story :)

The physiotherapist (I dunno whether he is having practical or what, he looks like not that professional) is measuring my bro's elbow's angle. [because my bro's hand cannot straight due to cast wearing for almost 2 months]

And then, he take this out from a hot boiled water and put this on my bro's hand.

I'm so curious on what's that. So i take the towel out and have a look on it. It's hot! My bro said inside this are sands. [He is so clever! ^^]

After 20 mins, his hand become like this. Can you see the reddish on his hand? It is because the sand is too hot!!

He's doing the therapy 'exercise'! Haha! He was so CANNOT HELP with the exercise. [at home also can do larrrr]

And I played with this. I dunno what is this called. But i know it is to test how much energy you have. The pic above shows strong is my right hand. I use full energy liao de. But my bro's injured hand higher than me a bit and his left hand is doubled of my right hand. Zzzzz.. Sien sai~~

Here goes with our first physiotherapy 'trip'. LMAO!!

He need to go for this kinda treatment once a week until he get fully recovered.

Poor him!

Anyway, wish you recover soon!! ^^

Draw this by using my phone ^^

沟通的方式

2011-04-22T23:57:00.000+08:00

一直以来我都觉得沟通很重要。我认为只要肯沟通，很多事就能解决了。

但是，我却忽略了，原来沟通的方式才是最重要。

往往，我们对自己身边的人所用的语气都是很随便，有时候甚至会把怒气发泄在他们的身上。
可是，对外人，我们却非常客气，唯唯诺诺地，什么脾气也不敢发。

对家人、熟悉的好朋友、情人，我都是这样。
很粗暴，很不客气，很直接。
我认为这是我最真挚的一面。

可是，有时候，我说的话会不小心地伤害到他们而我却不知道。

又或者是，我与他们发生了冲突，不是正面的冲突如吵架，可能就是生闷气还是什么的，我往往就是很想以沟通来解决问题，可是，因为沟通方式不当，所以可能会导致冲突加深。

会突然领悟到这个是因为大番薯。
那天跟他‘讨论’我们之间的问题，就是远距离、信任、离开的话题。
我就把我所有想讲的东西都讲出来了，我还以为他会体谅我，然后了解我继而明白我。
殊不知，他竟然生气了。
然后就演变成吵架。

虽然到最后我们没事了。
更明白对方要什么。

但我却从中领悟到，表达的方式很重要。
如果我能用更好的方式来告诉他。
或许我们又可以少一次战争。
尤其我们的性格和脾气真的很像，都很火爆。

我不知道什么样的沟通的方式才是最好。
但我知道沟通的时候真的要心平气和。
不然什么话都听不进。

我要幸福．不要面子

2011-04-22T21:22:00.000+08:00

邓兆刚，严重警告你。这篇文章，你必读！

聽到一位元朋友結婚的消息，一連使我難過了好幾天。可別誤會是那種「新郎結婚，新娘不是我」的悲劇發生在我身上。事實上，我只是為一樁情緣的錯過而深深遺憾。

結婚的朋友是個聰慧、美麗而纖細的女孩，因此她戀愛時我們自然十分好奇，是何方君子能贏得她的芳心。

某日在一個燠熱難當的午後，辦公室裡，幾乎每個人都被盛夏的天氣，熱得暈頭轉向，惟獨這位朋友卻埋首專心地在做剪紙。

「這麼熱的天氣，妳怎麼靜得下心來做這麼細的工作啊？」終於有人拋出了心中的疑問。

「這張剪紙是要送人的。」女孩的回答很短，說完，她又埋頭專心工作，臉上依然充滿著愉悅而恬適的笑容。她的神情，讓我相信，她的確很在乎大洋彼岸的那個男孩。

兩年以後，女孩結婚了，我們正要向她道賀，卻發現她結婚的對象並不是當時的那位男友。

對現代人來說，婚前換過幾個男、女朋友似乎並不值得大驚小怪，女孩的婚事之所以令我們覺得意外，主要是因為她處理感情的是一向慎重。

她常說她對愛情有「潔癖」，除非是志趣投合、相知相契，否則難以令她動心。

對於那名隔海千里的男子，我們都相信她是用整個生命去愛的。

但是，為什麼沒有美滿的結局呢？………

我們相約在一個人不多、氣氛極佳的咖啡店，見面時彼此只是默然。

我仔細端詳者她，總覺得她似乎沒有一般新娘子的喜氣。

「其實我現在過得蠻好的，只是有時候想起來，會覺得有點遺憾。」

接著，她告訴我，有一回，國外的那個男孩回來，他們因為某事而爭執，雙方都在氣頭上說了重話，男孩憤然返美，兩人從此未再聯絡。

「啊？就這樣斷啦！？」我覺得不可思議。

「我一直很在乎他，吵架以後仍然深深期盼跟他再聯繫，但誰也不願意先低頭，所以就僵了半年多。」

聽到這裡，我已經覺得很著急了，按捺不住想知道結局為何如此，我很直接地問：「他知道妳結婚了嗎？」

她點點頭，眼眶些許溼潤，繼續說道：「我們就這樣失去聯絡，在我最落寞的時候，一位同事對我十分照顧，也給予我很大的支持，後來同事向我求婚，我很為難。

最後，我要他給我一個月的時間考慮。」

「我，終於丟開了所謂的面子和矜持，寄了封長信把我對他的牽掛和目前的情況都告訴他，希望他趕快和我聯絡.......」

「難道他沒有回音嗎？還是他已經變了？」

朋友搖搖頭，很無奈地！

「我的信寄到美國的時候，正好在耶誕節前學校停課，他去度假了，所以沒接到我的信。

我一直等，等不到音訊。一個月以後，就和同事結婚了。

他回到學校看到信的那一天，剛好是我舉行婚禮的日子。後來，他同學告訴我，他接到信後當場痛哭。」

唉！該怎麼說呢？這時，縱使再問世間情為何物，怕也只能以造化弄人來解釋。

她臨走前，很懇切地留下一句話：「陳玲，我覺得幸福比面子重要。」

我們告別後，我沒有馬上離開咖啡廳，獨自坐在窗前，我反覆咀嚼著她說的那句話：幸福比面子重要！

的確，我們往往因為太在意「誰先開口」、「誰先低頭」等面子問題，錯失了許多生命中的重要機緣，而等待的日子，也許是一天兩天、一年兩年，也或許是長長的一輩子。

與其一輩子的等待，甚至是終生的遺憾相比，「面子」實在是算不得什麼。

如果，你衷心地想向某人說些什麼，或者，想為他做些什麼，卻遲遲不敢付諸實行。

那麼，想想看，幸福與面子，何者重要？

看完这些，我并不是很释然。。【有很多都很想反驳】

2011-04-22T21:13:00.000+08:00

1.人生就是一列开往坟墓的列车，路途上会有很多站口，没有一个人可以至始至终陪着你走完，你会看到来来往往、上上下下的人。如果幸运，会有人陪你走过一段，当这个人要下车的时候，即使不舍，也该心存感激，然后挥手道别，因为，说不定下一站会有另外一个人会陪你走的更远。【虽然我适应力很强，可是我不想让我身边的人轻易下车】

2.当明天变成了今天成为了昨天，最后成为记忆里不再重要的某一天，我们突然发现自己在不知不觉中已被时间推着向前走，这不是静止火车里，与相邻列车交错时，仿佛自己在前进的错觉，而是我们真实的在成长，在这件事里成了另一个自己。【时间是不停留这是一个残忍的事实，但我觉得我们在时间里被逼着成长，有种很可怜的感觉】

3.家庭Family这个词意味著什么吗？家庭FAMILY是爸（Father）和（And）妈（Mother）、我I爱Love你You。“爱”的中英文双解：Love爱=Listen倾听+Obligate感恩+Valued尊重+ Excuses宽恕。【就算要LOVE，也要看对象，看对方值不值得你付出】

4.咖啡苦与甜，不在于怎么搅拌，而在于是否放糖；一段伤痛，不在于怎么忘记，而在于是否有勇气重新开始。【开始的时候，请记得三思】

5.为什么要那么痛苦地忘记一个人，时间自然会使你忘记。如果时间不可以让你忘记不应该记住的人，我们失去的岁月又有甚么意义？【不需要忘记一切，就算是伤痛，它是你成长的记录】

6.如果某个男人主动替你拎包，把你放在道路的里边走，主动为你拉椅子，不要因此而感激涕零。这只能说明他之前有无数个女朋友教过他这一点。而能让他记住的女人，永远是改变了他的那个女人，而不是你。所以，越是细节完美的男人，对女人而言越是挑战。【看到这点，我笑了。邓兆刚，那你对我而言岂不是没有挑战性？？哈哈哈！！】

7.吵架时为什么会大声？原因是，当两个人相互愤怒的时候，他们的心和心相距很远；为了填补这段距离，他们必须呼喊，这样彼此才能听到。他们越是愤怒，心和心距离则越是遥远，于是，他们只有越发强力呼喊，他们彼此才能听到。反过来，也是恋爱时为什么喃喃低语的原因。【我觉得冷战比吵架的距离还要远】

8.从正面看，是伟大的神（God）；从反面看，是卑鄙小人（dog）。其实，人们所犯的罪恶（evil），反过来，正是为了活着（live）。——换个角度很多事情便不一样。【在某些事上，的确换个角度，想法就不一样。】

9.同时追两只兔子的人，一只也不会逮到。不要贪图无所不有，否则你将一无所有；不要试图无所不知，否则你将一无所知；不要企图无所不能，否则你将一无所能。【所以，我都很专一的】

10.人生中十种无能为力的事：1、倒向你的墙。2、离你而去的人。3、流逝的时间。4、没有选择的出身。5、莫名其妙的孤独。6、无可奈何的遗忘。7、永远的过去。8、别人的嘲笑。9、不可避免的死亡。10、无可救药的喜欢。【很多事都无能为力，只要真的尽力就好】

11.笨人的爱情是批发出去的，仅凭“让我一次爱个够”的蛮力；聪明人的爱情是零售出去的，懂得“只爱一点点”的精妙。【所以，我是笨的！】

12.友谊、爱情、婚姻都好比铺水泥路，隔上一段就要留出一条缝隙，保持着一点点距离。不留缝隙，路面很快就会膨胀、坏掉。【这就是老豆跟我讲的，不要什么都要完全了解。有时候不知道会好过知道】

13.金钱是个颇有神力的照妖镜，小人、伪君子在它面前皆原形毕露；爱情是个手法高超的化妆师，爱人、年轻人受它影响都容光焕发。【无可否认的事实】

14.当地球180度转弯，白天就要变成黑夜；当地球继续180度转弯，黑夜又恢复白天。当我们为了一个人180度转弯，我们背对着自己的叹息；当我们为了自己再次180度转弯，其实一切都可以重新开始！【不要因为黑暗所以害怕，要期待黎明的到来】

15.每个人都是上帝咬过一口的苹果，都是有缺陷的！有的人缺陷比较大，那是因为上帝特别钟爱他(她)的芬芳！【那就是说，我很香咯？】

16.爱情是零度的冰，友情是零度的水，也许我们是最好的冰水混合物。走到一起后，升温，化为友情的水；降温，结成爱情的冰。不冷不热间，就是爱情与友情的暧昧。【那要怎样结婚哦？】

17. 其实美丽的故事都是没有结局的，只因为它没有结局所以才会美丽。这就像为什麽悲剧总是比喜剧更让人难忘，也就像人们总是找寻的真爱，却往往擦肩而去，不是这个时代远离了爱情，而是人们一开始就没有想过用一颗心去坚定的温暖另一颗心，不是爱情不再永恒，而是浮躁和易变的心！【你的心，有被我温暖到吗？】

18.我以为终有一天，我会彻底将爱情忘记，将你忘记，可是，忽然有一天，我听到了一首旧歌，我的眼泪就下来了，因为这首歌，我们一起听过。【我没有试过咯，夸张！】

19.我们许多时候并不是因为安定了，想要结婚；而是无法与某人安定下来，所以才要结婚。【是啊？我现在很想结婚，可是我不想安定下来哦】

20.热恋时，情侣们常感叹上辈子积了什么德；结婚后，夫妻们常怀疑上辈子造了什么孽。【我在热恋的时候，只是很好奇：为什么我会这样喜欢你。没有想过积德这件事】

21.爱情就像攥在手里的沙子，越刻意地攥得紧，流失得就越快！【这个完全赞同！】

22.同样的一瓶水，便利店里2块钱，五星级酒店里却30块。很多时候，一个人的价值取决于所在的位置。【所以，我们要自我增值】

23.请感谢伤害你的人，因为他磨炼了你的心志！请感谢绊倒你的人，因为他强化了你的双腿！请感谢欺骗你的人，因为他增进了你的智慧！请感谢藐视你的人，因为他觉醒了你的自尊！请感谢遗弃你的人，因为他教会了你该独立！【这一段话，我联想到Leo's Family】

24.生命中有一些人与我们擦肩了，却来不及遇见；遇见了，却来不及相识；相识了，却来不及熟悉；熟悉了，却还是要说再见。【我不想说再见。I hate saying goodbye!】

25.哲人无忧，智者常乐，并不是因为所爱的一切他们都拥有了，而是所拥有的一切他们都爱。【我常悲，所以我是愚者】

26.一只脚踩扁了紫罗兰，紫罗兰却把香味留在那脚上，这就是宽恕。【把紫罗兰换成大便，我看你还说这是不是宽恕？】

27.永远不要认为别人的老公或老婆比自己的好，因为他们爱的并不是你。【我觉得自己的很好，因为我要他觉得我也很好！=p】

28.真正的爱情不在于你知道他（她）有多好才要在一起；而是明知道他（她）有太多的不好还是不愿离开。【我知道！^^】

29.怀旧，不是因为那个时代多么好，而是那个时候，你年轻。【也是的】

30.一个人只有一个心脏，却有两个心房，一个住着快乐，一个住着悲伤。笑的时候不要太大声，否则会吵醒隔壁的悲伤。【那我悲伤的时候，要哭大声一点，才能吵醒隔壁的快乐？】

31.两个人之间的感情就像织毛衣，建立的时候一针一线，小心而漫长，拆除的时候却只需轻轻一拉。【不能打死结吗？】

32.女人的幸福在于：他真的爱我；男人的幸福在于：她值得我爱。【呵呵。。是对的。。】

33.幸福不是被致命的错误所扼杀，而是被不断重复出现的小错一点点分解掉的。【所以，有什么不爽就要讲，不要慢慢累积起来。Siew Kong Oppa, ah la soh??】

34.婚姻不是1+1=2，而是0.5+0.5=1。即，两人各削去一半自己的个性和缺点，然后凑合在一起才完整。【这就是我们长讲的，你是我的另一半】

35.我们最大的情敌不是第三者，而是岁月。【我觉得是态度咧】

36.人生试题一共有四道题目：学业、事业、婚姻、家庭。平均分高才能及格，切莫花太多的时间和精力在任一题目上。【我不想当作这些是一种考试。会很有压力的。我要把这些当作是我的爱好，好好努力栽培】

2011-04-22T17:07:00.001+08:00

突然觉得，要找一个懂自己的人很难。

你越希望某人懂你，某人就偏偏不懂你。

心情不好的时候，想不到任何人可以倾述。

原来我的人缘是那么地不好。

找不到宣泄的管道。

只能在心里狂叫。

没人能听到。

从现在开始，
我不需要有人懂我。

我也不希望有人懂我。

脾气好，凡事自然就会好

2011-04-21T09:46:00.000+08:00

白龍王9大信條語錄記者整理出白龍王的9大信條語錄，列出共大家參考︰
●很多人來到這裡都問我︰
我的事業好不好？家庭好不好？孩子好不好？姻緣好不好？
我只是回答一句︰你的脾氣好不好？一切都會有答案。

●拜神求平安，回家卻和父母頂嘴，要怎樣得到平安？

●父母才是真神，對父母比神好一點，一切便順順利利。

●心好有好日－這也是白龍王的座右銘。

●讀書讀得高就好，脾氣高就很不好。

●神不會騙人，只有人騙神。死人不會罵人，只有人罵死人。

●無論是甚麼人，壞人、好人、有錢人、窮人，來到這裡都要排隊。

●拜神不要迷信。

●好樹生好火，家中夫妻和諧，孩子才會學習去遷就人家。

人的一生都在學做人學習做人是一輩子的事，沒有辦法畢業的。
人生不管是士農工商、各種人等，只要學習就有進步，今天要跟大家分享需要學習的事。

第一、「學習認錯」人常常不肯認錯，凡事都說是別人的錯，認為自己才是對的，其實不認錯就是一個錯。認錯的對象可以是父母、朋友、社會大眾、佛祖，甚至向兒女或是對我不好的人認錯，自己不但不會少了什麼，反而顯得你有度量。學習認錯是美好的，是一個大修行。

第二、「學習柔和」人的牙齒是硬的，舌頭是軟的，到了人生的最後，牙齒都掉光了，舌頭卻不會掉，所以要柔軟，人生才能長久，硬反而吃虧。心地柔軟了，是修行最大的進步。一般形容執著的人說，你的心、你的性格很冷、很硬，像鋼鐵一樣。如果我們像禪門說的調息、調身、調心，慢慢調伏像野馬、像猴子的這顆心，令它柔軟，人生才能活得更快樂、更長久。

第三、「學習生忍」這世間就是忍一口氣，風平浪靜，退一步海闊天空；忍，萬事都能消除。忍就是會處理、會化解，用智慧、能力讓大事化小、小事化無。各位要生活、要生存、要生命，有了忍，可以認清世間的好壞、善惡、是非，甚至接受它。

第四、「學習溝通」缺乏溝通，就會產生是非、爭執與誤會。現在中國大陸、香港和台灣，兩岸三地最重要的就是溝通，相互了解、相互體諒、相互幫助，大家都是龍兄虎弟，互相爭執、不溝通怎麼能和平呢？

第五、「學習放下」人生像一只皮箱，需要用的時候提起，不用的時就把它放下，應放下的時候，卻不放下，就像拖著沉重的行李，無法自在。人生的歲月有限，認錯、尊重、包容才能讓人接受，放下才自在啊！

第六、「學習感動」我們看到人家得好處，要歡喜；看到好人好事，要能感動。感動是一個愛心、菩薩心、菩提心，在我幾十年的歲月裡，有許多事情、語言感動了我，所以我也很努力的想辦法讓別人感動。

第七、「學習生存」為了生存，我要維護身體健康，身體健康不但對自己有利，也讓朋友、家人放心，所以也是孝親的行為。

I-AM-ONLY-50KG!!!!!!!!!

2011-04-20T19:19:00.000+08:00

As mentioned in the title post, I am only 50kg now!! And I wanna drop down this happy moment here ^_^ Yuhooo~~~~~~~~~~~

This evening, I accompanied my bro went to hospital to do his very first time physiotherapy. After we reached there, we've been called to get into the therapy room after waited for 15 mins. Once I get in, I saw a weighing machine there. With no hesitation, I got up to the machine and try to know what is my current weight. The last time I used the machine is last sem, which my weight is around 57kg.
So, when I looked down on the numbers, it shows 50KG!!!! That time I was like, 'Woah!! I am 50kg now! I am 50 KG now!!! HAHAHAHAAHA!!!!!'
I can't wait to share with my bro after I knew it, and his reaction is, 'Wah!! You so 'light' dy de?? Good thing!' Ngek ngek ngek!! *wink*

Can you imagine? within 5months like that (one month plus for sem break + this sem), I lost around 7kg??!! And I wanna clarify one thing is, I REALLY DO NOT DIET AT ALL!
Yup, I am planning to diet all the time, but I always failed it due to I-LOVE-FOODS!! I love to eat, especially junk foods, high calories food, heavy cheese, french fries and blah blah blah.. And I always eat late when I'm with my cute gazat zai. (For your info, eat late is the most fat one! No matter what you eat.) With that, impossible I'm on diet guah~~~~
The only reason that I can think why I lost weight is maybe the one month that I sick bah.. (but still not sure.. /_\)

Haiz.. the first time I lost weight without doing anything. I feel diffident and shy because I lost weight suddenly and I'm still not used to it. And due to the weight lost, my face become horse face like last time when I was slim during secondary school. (There are both sides no matter in what thing.@@)

I hope I do not have any hidden disease. Bobi Bobi (In hokkien)

But anyway, I'm happy because I finally can slim down and I hope I will not fat back to that horrible round shaped body anymore. ^^

I-AM-ONLY-50KG NOW!!!! muahahahaha!!!

未来的路要自己勇敢的去走

2011-04-19T09:44:00.067+08:00

当别人忽略你时，不要伤心，每个人都有自己的生活，谁都不可能一直陪你。
不要让某个人某件事成为你的全部。
感动代替不了感情。
不管跟谁，朋友或陌生人，你必须学会，即使伤心，也要微笑。

每个人都很自私，不要奢望别人无缘无故对你好。
当一个人不值得你珍惜时，要学会放弃。
抓的越紧，失去的越多，正如沙子，你的手握得越紧，沙子就落得越多。
该珍惜的一定要学会珍惜，失去了，可能是你一生的痛和悔。
当你觉得失去了全部，其实你还拥有很多。
当你无助时，你可以哭，但哭过你必须要振作起来，绝地逢生并不罕见，何况不是绝境！
不能以貌取人，懂得欣赏别人的才华。
当你觉得处处不如人，不要自卑，记得你只是平凡人。
父母是真正对你好的人，不要只是没钱时，才想起你要打电话给他们。
你以为你还没长大，其实别人早已不再把你当成孩子。
时间可以改变很多，譬如一个人，一份感情。
每一天都在改变，不要用旧方法解决问题。
两人相爱，却不一定会在一起。
别人永远感受不到自己的痛苦，不要去倾诉，做好自己就好。
当你看到别人在笑，不要以为世界上只有你一个人伤心，其实别人只是比你会掩饰。
也许你害怕失去，总是患得患失，不管是该珍惜的还是不该珍惜的，其实应该学会顺其自然，是自己的总不会溜走。
也许你不懂得珍惜，一次任性使你失去了很多。
也许你把某人某事当成了全部，当那些失去了，你也绝望了。所以你要懂得把生活分成几部分，失去了一部分，你还会看到，你还有很多。

时间把人改变了很多，仅此记下，记录自己成长的足迹.

这篇文章深深地打入了我的心。
它安慰了现在有点脆弱的我，也点醒了自己不应该站在自己的圈子里面看一件事物。
我看到的未必是全部。我感觉到的也未必是事实。

大番薯，
我知道自己为什么会天天哭了。
因为我把你看成是我生命里的全部。
我吃饭想你，上网想你，无论我做什么都想你。
我知道我是应该想你，
可是不该过度。
这会让你有负荷。
不想让你觉得有负荷的我，竟然是天天干着把负荷堆在你身上。
对不起咧。

我醒了。
虽然不是100%地醒，
可是我真的有领悟到些什么的。
找了几位了解我的朋友聊。
得到了结论。

我决定，
不去想了。（不代表你不重要了，你的份量还是无人可以取代。）
不把思念无时无刻挂在嘴边。（不是不想念你了，只是不一定要一直告诉你。你做得到，为什么我做不到？=p）
不要浪费时间了。（我们现在应该为了自己的前途奋斗。你去找钱，我也应该努力读书。我不想自己输给你。我也要找不少于你的钱！！）
不要再怕失去你了。（你也是怕失去我。可是，你并没有让自己陷入无谓的胡思乱想。我也应该做得到。）

其实，我不相信顺其自然。正如你所说的：虽然命运已经安排好了一切，但决定始终在你手里。是我们自己决定我们的命运。你的决定，就是你的命运。
还有，我也谢谢我的弟妹，他们很懂我，很了解我。
告诉我不要想那么多。想得多，就会发生。
所以，我决定了。
既然想得多就会发生，那我就去想一些开心和美好的事。

最后，大番薯，
不要担心我了。
尽情去为了钱途打拼吧！
只要你累了，回过头，我还是一定会跟在你身后。不会落队。
所以，我也要自我增值。
做一个有资格跟在你身后的女人。

为我们的未来加油！
我们可以的！
我们会幸福的！！

You Are The One:)

2011-04-19T02:36:00.002+08:00

I'm using my phone to blog again:) hehe=p

Yea,it's almost 2 in the morning and I still awake. It's a normal phenomena for me after he went to Australia. Lol.
It sounds like ridiculous but I still have that kinda feeling with me as I mention in my previous post, which I have the wtf breaked-up-feel after he left. But I'm getting better now:) Yuhoo~~!!!

No others reason but him. Told you, he's the only medicine would cured me. And it's really works!
I finally talked to him what I'm thinking and what makes me feel unsecured.

He thought that I don't trust him. I forgive him about that. It's normal that he'll think like that. No blame on you cuz I know you're jealous-ing actually. You thought I rather listen to others but not choose to trust you.
(In fact, I do always trust you. But I just don't have the confidence that how long the love between us can stay. Too many examples around me, unfortunately most of it end up with unwanted ending:)

Distance relationship is really hard to maintain. Especially for those who are immature, loves to think nonsense like me:( But I believe that true love can conquer all these barriers. Our attitude is the main soul in this relationship despite LOVE.

You said that: These 3 months is going to be a tough challenge for us. And you believe that we can go through this undertakings.
(I know we can do it^^)

3 months is actually not a long period. But it's a long term fight for us.

Dear Lg, let's fight for our love! Fight for our future! We can do it! I'll stay strong for us!
You are the one who drive me into the brightness and happiness life:)
Love you!

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Wtf KLCC

2011-04-18T19:15:00.002+08:00

Finally, he's left.

As what he'd planned few years ago, he fly to Australia to proceed his next life stage as well as complete his ambitious dream ^^

As his super clever supportive wifey, sure I'll support him no matter he what he wanna do and of course, as long as the thing would not hurt him lah..

After he left, I was being emo and moody all the time. Cried since before he left and till today :'(

(I bet he dunno about this. ^^)

I not really get why I'm acting like this. It's just no so like me.

And, a weird thing is, I SERIOUSLY DON'T UNDERSTAND why do I have the break-up-feeling??!!!

We still keep in touch everyday, we webcam-ing, we msn-ing, we fb-ing, and we even sms-ing and call-ing sometimes even it is costly. Therefore, I really don't get why am I have that kind of feeling.

Can someone answer me about this?? sobx sobx =[

I really hate myself get emo when I can't reach to him when I want to.

I really hate myself CRYING when he's calling me.

(I know he would not wish to hear my crying and sobbing sound when he called me.)

I really hate myself for being like i am a wtf widow who just lost her husband eternity =.=

I SUPER DON'T LIKE THE CURRENTLY ME NOW!!!!

Can anyone can give me some suggestion??

I know i will be fine, but not so fast ma izit??

Any short cut or fast way to get rid of my problem?

Gosh!! Tang Siew Kong, you're the only medicine, i guess. >.<

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2011-04-17T19:11:00.001+08:00

It's a meaningful video that super suitable with my current status with My lovely Siew Kong Oppa had been flight to Aus..

Lg, watch this..

我们要幸福地走到最后^^ ♥♥♥♥

♥♥♥Hop ♥♥♥

2011-04-13T00:32:00.000+08:00

今天，误打误撞看了这套戏。

真的很赞！

原来我的童心还真的未泯，

很喜欢这套戏！！

很懒得做推介，

可是真的很不错看。

题材很新。

很搞笑。

开场我就一直笑，

笑到完场。

很轻松的一套戏。

很可爱的兔子。。无法自拔地爱上它

奸角，它变兔子的时候笑傻我！！

喜欢卡通的朋友一定不要错过！

很棒的一套戏！！ ♥♥♥♥

Announcement

2011-04-08T17:01:00.000+08:00

Dear friends,

As mentioned, I've locked my blog for couple of weeks dy..

However, some of my friends asked me why your blog cant view jor geh?

Obviously, some of my friends still do not know I've locked my blog up.

Therefore, I decided to make an announcement here, that I'm going to lock my blog AGAIN due to my personal reasons.

And maybe someday I will make it public again..

HAHA! no choice! I'm a '~~super mercurial woman~~'.. Huhu~~

So, if u still care and wanna know about me, please kindly leave yr email here or PM me in facebook lah..

Thank you! =]

Six of Us's Genting Trip

2011-04-08T16:37:00.000+08:00

This is going to be a photo booming post.. ^^

I could hardly find words that can describe how enjoyable am I, and the rest during the trip.

I'm glad that I joined them^^

This Genting trip is a memorable trip for us as six of us never been to a same place together before, and this is our first time.

We had a lot of fun there.

We laughed no matter where we were;

We talked non stop loudly no matter what we were talking about;

We took big head photo clumsiness AGAIN;

We took photos wherever we feel want to;

We took photo till my both batts are dead.

This is just some of the part that I can share here.

It is just indescribable.

I love you guys! ♥ ♥ ♥

Those balloons light up our pics..

six of us.. It's been ages..

Solo session- Aiyuan

Solo session- Ah Ma

Solo session- Ah Beng

Solo session- Me

Solo session- Swee Suan

Wei wei dun have this kinda pic on this session. (cuz her bf needs her companion that time)

p/s: Those pics are without edited. Recently I feel so lazy to edit pics and combine pics..TeeHee^^

××Kenix Queen's Little Heaven×× **楸琪女王の小天堂**

年十四 - 灯佑苏丹街

事事不顺意

Treat your girl right, bro. Plain and simple.

Still you~

我的mummy

朋友

C-H-A-N-G-E!!!

Twilight Saga vs Vampire Diaries

【給巨蟹座的1封信】

不管了！！！

------

Just an ordinary girl

顿悟

Last Minute

20.11.2011

感触良多

我其实很不好

不吐不快

我爱我的家

I NEED A CHANGED!

Outdated post with my lovely new toy~

More than words :)

期待。怀念。盼望

闷~

Shared :)

我变成熟了吗？

"More than words"

我开学，开学咯！！！

事端

要开学咯

Singapore Trip (Adventure)

400th Days

Working Holiday Visa

Self- Loving

重色轻友

爱。动力。

♥ Our First Anniversary ♥

重视

无题

Should have be.

ΞΞΞΞΞΞΞΞ

~.~

.Untitled.

Drunk. Free. Crazy.

Lost

Easy Going

I need an answer

♥ ♥ ♥Challenging but Smooth's 10th and 11th month Anniversary ♥ ♥ ♥

A little updates about my June story~

300th day

为谁而玩?

First day in neway

Huhu~~~~

更新=]

我要的，只不过是很想和你簡簡單單的在一起

♥ ♥ ♥9th Month Anniversary♥ ♥ ♥

Dreams

It's MAY

12星座的寂寞忍耐度

怀念

我还是会。。。

开始啦

累

Physiotherapy

沟通的方式

我要幸福．不要面子

看完这些，我并不是很释然。。【有很多都很想反驳】

脾气好，凡事自然就会好

I-AM-ONLY-50KG!!!!!!!!!

未来的路要自己勇敢的去走

You Are The One:)

Wtf KLCC

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♥♥♥Hop ♥♥♥

Announcement

Six of Us's Genting Trip

××Kenix Queen's Little Heaven×× 楸琪女王の小天堂

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